I watch a documentary on a guy who is travelling through America, through japon etc… and I think that the world is crazy. I am so afraid of the people… do I care too much? is this my problem? I think a lot about the madness and the mad people… so maybe its a problem too… is it a paranoia? do you think that the world became crazy? or its just my delusion? maybe I am just lost for the moment because of my illness…
I honestly do not know. Just know someone cares.
thank you @bobbox1980, it touches me. maybe the isolation from the people for all these years behind me made some damages. sometimes I think that the people are all some kind of zombies… a delusion of mine I guess :D… but, yeah, I think a lot about the madness and I am scared for mu future when I see mad people in the street. I have two opposite feelings- I relate to them but I get afraid of the madness. maybe, in some kind of schizophrenias(like mine) , we just think too much…
For the past 6 years I have been mostly a home body too. It didn’t use to be so scary.
I definitely have a rumination problem too. I think about things over and over, rarely has it ever been beneficial.
I am not so much afraid of other people’s madness as I am my own. That one day I will start listening and following the voices and take my descent into madness that I will never recover from.
oh ok I see. me I dont have voices but I have almost everything else… I had some mystical fears from the others schizophrenics in my hospital… I feel like a bad person because of it… one woman told me not to look at her in my bizarre way :(… I was sad because of it. I still live myself like a bad person, I take everything on me… maybe too personally…
Dealing with people who hurt you is difficult. I too am too easily affected by what others think about me.
and what you mean by home body @bobbox1980? you were mainly living at your house alone is that it? me, since years I am like this… I am really fed up by this but I dont have the forces to fight my fears and my lack of emotions… maybe ill be forever alone… I hope the meds will work for me one day. I am 6 months on them and I see symptoms of my illness since child even… it happens sometimes I guess… I never was happy, I dont know what does it mean the happiness. I even dont know where the meds will bring me, I am even curious to find it one day. its not normal to dont feel anything on such strong meds.
you, dont be afraid of your madness. tell yourself that It cant get worse. 
I ended up in a hospital shortly after I moved back home. I saw friends often before moving back. But after being back for a while I started hearing voices telling me I was going to hell.
For a long time I thought those were real people and would argue with therapists on the subject. After my second time in the hospital they put me in a outpatient program that helped a lot more than my previous therapist. I started to believe that it was just hallucinations and delusions but recently I have been on the fence again.
I don’t know if you see a therapist but they can help and if the one you are seeing isn’t helping consider finding a new one, one that specializes in dealing with patients with your symptoms.
Can’t get worse… in the hospital I took a header onto the floor cause a voice told me to.
yes, I think the world has gone mad. It all has to do with the lack of gun control in the united states. You can’t feel safe just going to a pizza parlor or anywhere. I have learned to just say what the hell…just enjoy your life and if it’s your time to go it’s your time to go.
reassuring ourselves can help us bobbox1980, try it. me, I am not the typical schizophrenic. its chronical in my case, I dont have acute episodes… I just have some strange ideas on the reality, fears, paranoia etc etc… lack of positive emotions too, it sucks…
I will try and take your advice to heart… it won’t get worse…
yes, we should believe in ourselves… otherwise, do you have headaches because you think too much? me-yes… its terrible. imagine how much I think sometimes…
Me headaches, no. Mostly more voices. I wish I could offer some advice on thinking less. Maybe try taking up mindfulness… I am learning that in groups now.
have fun you guys…
yeah, my thinking is mainly a negative symptom. the hallucinations, are a positive one… but its harsch, I just undergo this cause you cant imagine how strong is the pain…and I dont think its just because I live in un unhealthy way( too much laptop, tv and no air)…
how are you @jukebox? thanks 
paranoia is a hard symptom to eradicate isn’t it? maybe it can take years to see it gone away isn’t it, pls help if you can?
I ignore my fears because they never happen and I can worry sick about maybe going out late at night but now I just enjoy the night time when I’m out. I like it that nobody is on the road at 2 a m in the morning…don’t worry about fear and it will lose it’s grip on you. good luck.