I had a decent bout with paranoia today and took an extra 1mg of my Risperidone (my Rx is flexible that way) to help tone it down. My paranoia revolves around being afraid that the people who control my brain and environment will hurt me emotionally and/or physically through external means or by having me hurt myself emotionally or physically or both by having me do or say damaging things. It can get really scary. I am always paranoid every day but I manage. Sometimes it gets very distracting like today. I feel better than I did earlier today due to the extra Risperidone. My paranoia is always related to the theme of my delusion. What are you paranoid of?
These days, I’m not paranoid of much. Years ago, when I was working was when I felt most paranoid, thinking certain people were plotting against me. Especially when I was in the US Army. I was constantly paranoid that the others were out to get me and wanted to send me somewhere to die and stuff like that. But actually, they really did want me to not survive because basically I was “incompetent” at my job (which I found out later was due to mental deficiencies). Not really paranoia if they’re really out to get you. Scary when paranoia isn’t paranoia, that it’s hidden reality.
But nowadays, definitely much more minor. I live and prefer to live a socially isolated lifestyle. I still feel there are secret mini-cameras inside the smoke alarm detectors so I always get the feeling I’m being watched in that sort of way.
i am paranoid of manic people and mania altogether.
it frightens me and disturbs me awfully. judy
I haven’t been paranoid in months. But when I was I used to think people hacked into my computer and wanted to kidnap my children
Usually it’s of an authority coming for me. Or of just being exposed in general of my thoughts, as if someone knows what I’m thinking. Sometimes its fear of a higher power. When I am well and on meds I can have a hard time with a laugh across the room or stare.
My residual paranoia is on and off, but it’s basically that people are going to kill me or hurt me or otherwise are out to get me. And I also keep feeling like someone is watching me from the sky. Through the roof and the objects, they’re watching, and the only way to stop them is with tape.
I have what I guess is low-grade constant paranoia. I think no one likes me, in my neighborhood, at work, in my family…and that they act nice to my face but talk about me behind my back. I believe no one cares about me (is that paranoia? I’ve believed that since I was a kid) The worst is that I don’t believe my husband loves me and when I “spin out” it’s when I truly believe he has a secret life and is cheating on me. Then I try not to, but I attack him verbally, accusing him…gathering whatever “facts” I have and confronting him with them. Poor guy… and poor me, really, because I really believe what I’m saying at the time and feel all the anger and pain of it.
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I think my greatest paranoia revolves round people. With some people just by looking at them I think stay clear as you might well hurt me.
I get paranoid that my thoughts and/or feelings are being broadcast to everyone and that people are plotting against me because of it. Some days are better than others but I’m finally starting to recognize these thoughts as irrational and delusional. Other people can’t hear my thoughts, or my dreams at night, etc., etc.
Paranoid that the voices get intrusive and paranoid others are plotting against me that’s it
My most common paranoia is that I’m not alone in my room…aka there are ghosts or demons around…when I was younger it was paranoia of monsters being around…when I’m not doing well I also get paranoid of other people trying to hurt me and would get huge levels of anxiety outside in public
For me it’s everyone is watching what I do, have faced this fear, but it can still get to me
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My paranoia is real 
I give love and have been workaholic with eyes and eons etc (but not me body) but i get hate in return.
I think this is because the ones that steal from me (so much good energy, beyond multi billions cash, good spirit, light n lightyears , eyes, education irl etc) lie about me and incite hate about me so the ones that are not stealing from me hate me based upon the lies they believe and the hatred the others incited worked.
or they get paid off.
Incredible amounts are involved and most jury n judges n governments etc etc etc get paid off or threatened.
They dont want me to be myself they want some one else , others live happily off on me n feeling me etc.
Its very strange that i dont get love when i give so much and that have so much maliciousness such as they say im not aloud to go out etc.
I believe my different bodies of who i am have been beyond abused since birth mostly and that they even try stealing who i am from me such as taking my spirit n using my lightyears and eons and eyes etc
I remember counting how much money i made in a eye of me and then it was said thats how much another woman had.
I still have faith that there are beings who can and do love me but they are minority it seems and not really heard nor seen.
I even beleive its possible for me to have relationship with a real deal being.so to say.
Theres lots of people that have lied about me and who i am and who they are and they lie in churches even, heaps of them.Astounding the mischief they get up to.
They do awful things and then say it was me.
They dont want me to have free spirit or to be free to be myself cause so many other names n people are using n wearing etc n made a lot of/on it.
The whole places where i live seem to be walking around lying because some well known people who stole from me and then all lied about me incited hate etc and guess the locals etc believe the lies.
If i was free spirit they may like me .im very nice, warm, loving and many good qualities to me.
but i think they may even of taken my spirit but not entirely becaue i am still me.
I feel this nasty attitude and exclusion.
They isolate me and want me have bad quality life with out goodness.they are very jealous and malicious in reality.
At dance they attack me spiritually but with weapons also in spiritual way.
I mean all of them against me alone.
if someone higher r… and they refuse accept they bully, steal, cheat and lie.
When i was toddler i think my name was another but they took that and then my eons , light and all they could.
Amazing i survived.specially at a certain age.
I was in there bodies and some of them in my body or just empty n pain ful.
When i heard voices it was my “family” hating on me saying hurtful things but now i do not believe they are my real family.
They have done beyond cruel things to me and illegal things too.
I hope to not see most of them again in any way shape form i reccon.
Lots of people make a lot of me n they might want to have me as slave or just steal from me or etc
they always blame me for everything like im worse than the devil or something when irl im very good natured.
They have threatened or said about killing me or hurting me and said other really horrid things.
If people knew me and my spirit etc i beleive they would like me and some even love me but as said … many people been stealing n lying etc.
I actually think all around me they are up to nastyness, mischief and some well known people had surgery of me energy and lightyears amoung other things and incite hate.
That im pretty alone.
I just kinda kling on to that there are genuine good people out there who are not a part of this but i see how they treat me in community n society.
beyond outcast and etc
but they spent fortune on other ones to …
They make things seem a way.
Also that one of my clients stolen from me and that theres so many that are part of it.
They dont want me to be myself cause others making so much by taking it etc.
Governments and whole countries lied etc
Yes they try control my brain too and they do program me maliciously not to go out “not aloud to” etc
but i love who i am and i know who i am and i know im good being and give love and goodness but im sorry for them…
but so many of them…
lots of them may be innocent but merely beleive the lies and hatred incited by em.
What dont they lie about…
you name it kinda…
they often even say in name of there god they speak truth when they are lying…
I dont feel ive been treated nicely or that i get to be myself and im astounded at how theyve been to me…
Its illegal amoung other things.
Thats just a bit of it really.
Regular no sz paranoia was that I didn’t like bees. However sz paranoia was how I thought people were harassing me, I thought my food was poisoned and had to force myself to eat it, and others.
Paranoid? Did you say I’m paranoid?
Why should I be paranoid?
Are you doing something I should know about but no one will tell me?
Or worse, are you really on their team and fishing for answers to use against me,
because I won’t tell you then.
Good thing I only tell 25% of the truth here, and those on the other team can just figure out which of the 75% is not true.
You zig, I zag…you zag, I go left, and maybe end a bit left of center.
Just playing the game sir, hope this script was ok and it’s a rap, all’s well that ends well.
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I know how is that feeling.
I feel like my family don’t like me.
As all of them are ready to criticize me at any moment for any reason, for every mistake that I do or even if I don’t do mistakes. They are ready to criticize me even if I have a different opinion or even due my faith.
I know how is that feeling. It’s like, let me think… It’s like the people around us know our thoughts and feelings. It’s a delusion of reference.
But, as difficult as it is, I have to question my perspective. I accuse my husband of not loving me and he’s hurt and tells me I’m so hard on myself. He’s the first person to put it like that to me. He knows he loves me, and his perspective is that I don’t love myself and therefore assume no one else does either. That’s how my mind twists things.
But it’s difficult then too because what do I believe? What thoughts and perceptions can I trust? It’s difficult either way.
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I think many people with sz, think no one loves them and don’t really love themselves.
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I’m paranoid about religious authority I guess.