I’m just wondering what everyone remembers as their first delusion.
Mine was I thought I could read another student’s mind while I was in high school.
I don’t remember my first delusion, but my worst delusion was thinking that people were trying to get me to commit suicide.
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I had this delusion that God destined me with supernatural math skills that could allow me to bridge together different sciences.
then I put these sunglasses on 
and everything changed 
just kidding…
I realized that a science can be very complex with many specifics, and that I really needed to focus on getting a job 
That demons mixed up the dimensions and I was in the wrong life. And horrific things would happen to me or the world due to that.
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I was 18 right after my HS graduation when I believe I first had the onset of my Schizophrenia. From what I could recollect from that I was just hearing my family members inside of my head. However, when we went to the beach for a week I had a pretty spiritual but quite terrifying delusion. It had something to do with being the target of a worldwide scheme and was supposed to be idolized and receive constant pain for my lifetime. (I was picked on a lot during my time in HS…so bear with me haha) I ended up running to the beach away from my family and cousins during the night time and sat on the sand. There I saw luminescent and colorful glow in the sky that somehow reassured me everything would be okay. All I can say is I have a feeling Allah was watching me over that day, as He does everyday. Peace and Happiness to everyone LOL!
I don’t remember if it was my first initial delusion I experienced since I’ve been living like this for all of my life, but one of my earlier ones was that I had telepathic powers and that the voices gave me this power because I was special.
Like others, don’t remember what was my first one, lived for years with it thinking it was just the way things were
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I believed I was the Pope. I baptized 3 million people and I led 789 Sunday catholic masses before I realized I might be wrong.
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I think my first was that some people in crowded public places could see into my mind. This started around 7th or 8th grade I think. It stayed with me on and off my whole life.
My first delusion that lead to an episode which ultimately landed me in a psychiatrist’s office was that I was supposed to win the lottery. It started so innocently too, I worked in retail and some customer came in one night and asked if I heard how much the lottery jackpot was at. I didn’t so he told me; it was a lot. A simple interaction, but I obsessed over it. Fortunately I was poor and only spent $30 on tickets. But it lead to other delusions which had me fearing for my life.
It’s a trip when you finally come across the idea that all these things (delusions) aren’t real. When in the depths of them, I never would have thought my problems were mental. Even now I still have trouble believing what would be classified as delusional isn’t real. It certainly does help knowing I could just be delusional, when things get weird.
I remember my first delusion because after 46 years I still have it, but to a lesser extent: If I dried myself after a shower with a towel my skin would rub off.
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First I thought Npr was sending me secret messages coded in with the normal broadcast.
Then it was hearing secret messages in song lyrics, I was listening to that song Say it ain’t So by weezer and I thought it was sort of like an ancient spell. I thought all of Kid Cudi’s music had the ability to cast spells.
Eventually it evolved into all consuming full on madness, now here I am.
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I used to think the charmed ones were sending me messages, it’s a tv show about witches, they were attacking my self esteem, I bought the series on dvd and watched the whole thing.
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One of my first delusions was that the kitchen light had appeared out of thin air. I had never heard of apports before this. I had a delusion of an apport before ever having heard of them, and that is what our universe did, our universe is an apport.
Another one was that the weather was being manipulated. It was terrifying, i had never heard of that before, and the power from it was just terrifying. Turned out it was true and that it happens sometimes.
But all of my delusions were accompanied by other things to, like other entities visually appearing, and other external things, things have gotten physical to at times.
I don’t remember it was early childhood and it was imbedded in my thoughts and personality, and actually it was. I’m so fycking out of touch of everything that its yeh…
I’ll name few: I was thinking that I’m a engineer of universe, at least people was calling me this, and one day I’ll move mars close to earth (If I to broke down that analogy, there is too many illusions there)
I was thinking that there is a new piece of technology that is inserted in my brain, so authorities can do experiments. I was followed all day everyday, every moment.
I was victim to a lot of conspiracy, I was a terrorist, a spy, rich drug dealer, a best hacker, a best programmer, I reasercher who found all vaccines from all diseases, a man who uses 100% brain power instead few %, and have unlimited powers.
Everything I get exposed with I contemplate and dwell, it really depends what I’m exposed with. Most recently I’m not going out for last 6-7 month I’m in my studio 24/7, so I don’t really get exposures, but that doesn’t stop me diving down in any illusions if I to see things on internet, It happens maybe at least no less then couple times a day. Isolation is better for me in all ways. It’s a drag I was preparing to my funeral throwing stuff recently so there is nothing left. Its been a drag for at least 18-20 or more years.
I used to watch that tv show too. it was (how do you say?) enchanting…
besides, my mom couldn’t afford cartoon channels when I was young
That aliens were watching me, or were out to get me. Believed that the principle/teachers at my school were some sort of reptilian shapeshifter alien sent to get me. I was terrified to be by windows at night because any plane in the sky was a flying saucer observing me. I was downstairs the one time crying my eyes out wanting my sister to come upstairs with me since I thought there was aliens in the living room, I was so loud my parents came down and walked me up.
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First delusion was that Jacy Sturkie secretly loved me and that we were going to get married. Turned out not to be true.
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Thought I was a werewolf. Started when I was 5 and lasted until I was like 13. It got very complicated.
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i remember my first one it was thinking i was being followed around work while i was on third shift. voices telling me it was my fault that i deserved persecution.
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