wht was your first delusion and how long it last?were you aware it is false?
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I remember becoming obsessed with religion and politics and at my worst I thought I had the definitive answers to the world’s most pressing problems. No insight whatsoever. I was in the hospital a few weeks after getting entrenched in that delusion.
Mine were lights, flashing lights, if there was a light on the right side of my neighbors house I would think they did not like something on the right side of my house and I would throw it out. Flashing lights I thought the people did not like me and were telling me to go away.
I thought people could read my mind (I still struggle with this) and that I was the center of a grand conspiracy
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when I was a child I thought I could talk to animals, and communicate with them and people telepathically. I still suffer from this delusion occasionally. For some reason it keeps popping up. Around the same time I had the delusion that I could predict airplane crashes, I would see the images they showed on the news before the news came on. Obviously that was some sort of mind trick but it had me convinced.
I thought Jimmy Carter was a great president.
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I thought I was going to be thrown in jail for “harassing” someone at work. Everyone in the building I worked at were conspiring to catch me in an awkward situation and read my facial expressions. They had cameras watching me. State investigators came to my place of work to monitor me. Police parked outside my condo to monitor me. Everywhere I went people followed me and stared at me. All a conspiracy to catch me doing something questionable. I quit my job, but my manager talked me out of it once he knew I was delusional. A co-worker grabbed me one morning and said I was delusional. His mother was sz so he could see what was happening. I finally became aware and took Risperdal.
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What did you believe were the definitive answers? 
I thought world hunger could be solved by the US bypassing (what I saw as) the greedy governments of poor countries to give food to the people of said countries. I imagined different ways the media could solve prevalent body image issues (body image issues played into my psychosis; I was struggling with a bit of an eating disorder that I was trying to keep under wraps, so glad to not be dealing with that anymore). I also imagined a global system where people thrived off of each other’s kindness. Sharing of resources and working together and the like. Sounds nice but that’s not how humans work lol.
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First delusion
People r talking about me laughing about me
No i am not aware thats false
It was long before scz
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My first delusion was that people are always talking about me and laughing at me. This probably started in high school.
Some of it was true but most of it wasn’t.
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My first “delusion” was when I was a little kid that i could control weather. I still belive i can to some degree but back then I believed I could create tornados and such. Part of me thinks that maybe I could though. But it doesn’t really interfere with my life at all.
I’ve had the weather control delusion before. I thought the weather was based on how I was feeling at the moment. This was during my first full blown psychosis two years ago.
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My first delusion was actually planted in my mind from an outside source by abusive “friends” when I was 16 and continued until I was 18, my scz started around 16 but the delusions got out of control around 17. Anyways the inserted thoughts were that my peers from church could read my mind and could tell when I was having bad thoughts and were going to blackmail my thoughts if I left them. Those were not my thoughts. Those were their words.
Eventually, I had the notion from 18 til I went on meds at 22 that if someone stood behind me they could view my thoughts as if there was a literal tv screen on the back of my head. Eye contact and physical contact could also divulge my thoughts. I believed that the government was behind this, and at times I could feel invisible government agents in my room trying to use some sort of fear toxin to make me compliant. Not helping was an incident when a police officer threatened to shoot me on bogus grounds, despite me being compliant, and I though I had every reason to believe the governments agents were out to get me.
How are these beliefs pathological? 
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Good question.
I guess the problem was the accompanying psychosis. 
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Yeah mine was/is emotion based too!
I threatened some bullies I had by saying I would strike them down with lightning…which unfortunately lead to more bullying…
But I still believe it gets cloudy when I’m sad among other things. But I don’t think I can make lightning strike anybody now at least lol.
My first delusion was I thought I was the reincarnation of Florence Nightingale. I read her biography. I thought we had a lot in common. My current piano teacher thinks he is the reincarnation of Mozart. He says they have the same birthday. He is bipolar. LOL.
I thought there was a camera in my office watching me working. When there was no-one else around I went looking for it.
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