Just wondering what the most bizarre delusion you have ever had whist psychotic or schizophrenic ?
I have a had few…
One is I thought I was could travel at the speed of light in terms of mach 1…2…3 etc. This then made me think I was travelling into the future, and I thought everyone i knew had aged by so many years.
Another one was I thought I made up a new lottery game for everyone, called the ‘special lottery’ with even bigger winnings. I even calculated the odds of each win on paper…
Finally I had a delusion that I thought that there was an earthquake that travelled from one side of the world (Japan) all the way over to here and i felt it, it was a massive bang. This made my batteries on my back fall out…
I can see that you can have good perspective of your delusions; I think that it is a good sign!!!
My delusion:
My main delusion was that my neighbour wanted to accuse me with police because he could read my mind so I wanted to have sex with his daughters. (Nowadays I would like to have sex with them!! )
Tolteca
I believed World War 3 was breaking out and that a friend of mine was a Russian spy on the opposite side. In my delusion, he was sent to the US for a Hunger Games-style tournament where we battle it out to the death.
I’ve been coming down from a euphoric rush due to a major fever…
It’s been a bit of a sad crash…
I don’t think this one is bizarre as much as it’s the most recent…
I do have a lot to be thankful for, I am lucky to have the family and friends I do… and I do have a lot of love in my heart…
I’m hoping to shake hands, and extend some kindness to others… because then when they shake hands with someone else… that positive vibe will grow.
If I can meet more people… and give some warmth… give some kindness… and they meet more people… soon everyone can be connected with this small reassurance that it will all be OK. We’re all in the same boat… the earth boat!
With some hope and hard work… it can all be beautiful.
Eventually the kindness of humanity will start to win over and heal the situation.
thought i would say hi.
welcome earthling from glasgow.
to the question…
i woke one day …and realised i was human.
wow…that was a hard one to get over…!?!
take care
i think the weirdest was a matrix style thing where i wasn’t sure i should breathe the air or use the toilet. i don’t know quite why i thought this and it was fleeting but it happened nonetheless. i remember doing a poo in a plastic bag because i was too scared to use the toilet and being outside at 3am trying not to breathe with two tampons shoved up my nose. i was completely and utterly gone in the head. it’s quite amazing to me now that i could have ever got that far gone but there you go. i mean, what does it take to make a person lose touch with reality that far? very odd and extremely traumatic i think.
wow…i have no words…no words at all…lol
but i did get told a story about a sz who took a well aimed, might i say, a very well aimed , ’ dump ’ in a cup at a railway station in public…!?!
the next time he was seen , he had taken his meds and was smartly dressed and totally normal…!!
take care
I used to talk to Grace Kelly, the dead princess/hollwywod actress and I used to clean her bottom in the toilet when I felt she needed help as she was ill. The loyalty of love.
I believed that I could convince people that truth was more truthful than less than truth.
I was dead wrong and thus they continued to place their beliefs and disbeliefs first in line instead.
They just were not interested in truths at all.
Wow… last time I answers this one… I was in a true euphoric high… I miss that. I still believe the kindness I send out will keep spreading.
But as far as actually delusion… I think now… the most bizarre one is how at times… I think a baby is going to end up in my life very soon.
For a long time I was convinced I was going to acquire a baby somehow… like Silas Mariner and I’d be a single Dad.
A few times I even spent our grocery money on baby cloths. Glad that one has left… Now that I do have a girlfriend… who I do hope to marry… a baby just might come into my life… but not by magical means… and I think I’ve grown up from the wish to be a single Dad.
Have had so many. Over 7 major episodes/breakdowns - & around 8 years in florid psychosis.
Believed i’d lost my soul to the devil & uncovered a Global alien plot to enslave humanity using high technology, & that most of humanity had already been turned into a form of zombie.
Believed i was St Paul, & then that i’d died & was in the spirit World (lasted months), which changed into believing i was the antichrist/devil & that people wanted to kill me - ended in severe suicide attempt & hospitalisation.
Believed i was God, & part of a family of God, & was battling the forces of darkness. Believed i was going to initiate Global Nuclear war, that would bring in a new spiritual reality.
Believed a brood of snakes was growing under the sink. That an organised criminal gang was stealing my clothes, committing crimes in them & then planting the clothes/evidence in my flat to frame me. That my identity had been stolen & a group of voodoo practitioners were turning me into a zombie. That i had seen & knew the location of a buried mother ship that had crashed to earth, & that i was the leader of an underground light side alien resistance that was battling dark aliens, & i’d been infected with a lethal virus. That there were underground cities & road ways & that different houses were connected by secret tunnel systems.
That i was under surveillance by secret services. Being monitored by satellites. That everything was bugged & high technological monitoring devices were in everything, That people were wearing body suits. That there were 2 of everything & everyone, coexisting in the present & past realities. That i’d existed at the creation of the World.
That certain people were robots. That unicorns existed. All kinds of stuff.
I don’t know what was most bizarre. I thought my boss was a satanist. I gathered evidence and proof of that. Even tried to convince my coworkers.
Or maybe it was when I could communicate through radiowaves. I could make other people think my thoughts. Then I realized it was a two way communication and started thinking about random stuff so noone couldknow what I REALLY was thinking about.
