My preference would be to work as much as possible as a tutor, but right now all I do is go to day treatment and 1-4 support groups per week and my body feels tired. I also hike weekly and will start attending cancer and grief support groups. I already finished most of the paperwork to be a peer coach for 1 client. But I feel that’s not enough to live a respectable and independent life. If I work more, it might become exhausting. I’d like to work on accomplishing other life goals like driving and drawing better, being a better daughter, making more friends, etc. It’d be nice to work more to save for a car or a future vacation, but I’m always out of fuel. My emotions have come back and life often looks beautiful. It’d be nice to accomplish something like art or better friendships or healthier body. Sitting at home reading or wasting away my life is not for me. It just frustrates me how I doubt I can work due to low energy but have so much free time on my hands…
Somehow support groups are manageable but adding day treatment just 3 hours per day 3 days per week leaves me exhausted the entire week. I guess with support group you can rest in between. I’m not extremely low energy, somehow just low functioning enough to make tutoring hard. I am taking 1 peer coaching client and if that goes well they might give me a second client. But I’ve tried tutoring when I was higher functioning. It’s a fun job but just being present for a 6 hour school day will probably take me a week to recover.
Thanks. I go out walking a few times a week and hike on the weekends. It’s nice having a buddy, though, so if I had a client to buddy up with me that’d be nice. Today I will walk home!
You know what, I keep going back and forth but I think maybe I will try to keep tutoring. Lately I’ve been sleeping at 8pm and that’s been helping with energy. Need to buy a car. I already go out quite a bit… idk will think about it. If I work less I can exercise more.
Ok! Thanks for all the advice. Tomorrow I plan to get moving. Will go to see my psychiatrist, attend an art class session, buy a new lightbulb, and find a new pcp.