Like what some people said, I try to make the most out of everything. But to answer your question, the part that makes me the most sad is what I’ve could have been. And never reaching others expectations.
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@John_Raven I feel the same way too. I think about what I could have been all the time. How different things would have been if I didn’t have this diagnoses.
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I am glad, well kinda glad, that I am not the only one that feels this way. Every day I have to deal with this lack of pleasure and still have to carry on as though I am normal. It gets really hard trying to be normal and work and do everything those without mental illness do.
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That’s what I find aswell all the mundane day to day things in life are more challenging. Including some simple work even cleaner role is challenging
i don’t like how my perceptions are off and its sad to have to keep making them right. asfar as love you can love again. as far as life you’ll have it often. look for happiness in the little things. happiness is happiness. have a whole life.
It makes me sad that I lost everything that I’ve been working for my whole life. I am still young and I know things can get better but I am seriously at a loss at how to clean up my mess of a life. For now I just take it one day at a time I guess.
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Losing my friends, my jobs, and the potential I had before the illness is the saddest part. I think about it nonstop
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The potential I had to do something great with my life. I was a very driven individual with big goals and now I have to settle for living day to day with this illness. My brain doesn’t even work the way it used to but I try to make the best of it.
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What makes me most sad about this condition is that so many people with sz/sza have very poor insight and don’t agree to take medicine as their pdoc’s recommend, and therefore suffer excessively and even sometimes take their own lives because of it, (as my son did).
What makes me mad about this condition is that when patients have poor insight because of their illness, and refuse to take their medicine, the pdoc’s have no legal right to force medication upon them, for their own good, and because of that sometimes patients die (as my son did).
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The most sad thing about my Sz? Propably a fact that however I try to accept what happens in my mind, I just don’t seem to be able to be bananas with it. It’s hard to not get pissed off and not getting mad to my inner f**kfaces. And also - i’m making music and my symptoms are on my career’s way.
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Loss of motivation, energy, and drive. As well as the inability to turn intelligence and skills into money. I lost a lot of communication skills from cognitive issues and very low self esteem. My ego has been destroyed from this illness.
An example would be tutoring math like algebra or even calculus. I could probably do it but I have no credentials or completed education. Same thing with programming. I don’t know enough to get a job or make money. I feel worthless and paranoid.
Even if I did tutor privately, it wouldn’t be enough to survive.
Learning new skills is hard as a schizophrenic.
I tried getting into conspiracy theories on YouTube and to make money but that failed miserably. I’ve given up on that. Plus, it is not productive and healthy. I hope it didn’t ruin my future career prospects or life.
I’m paranoid because of it but it helped lessen the severe dissociation I had.
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Hmm i like these kinda philosophical posts. Things lost, yes, if i had to put it in a way. I would say my old world left me or died and it put up a fight before it went. But i dont know if the pain is of having lost the old way or that now i have to find a new one. Gone are my quarks and ways that carried me through till now. Now im on my own. Left to my own devices which is nearly zero. I shall build anew.
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I’d say my lack of motivation makes me the saddest. Even when I am not in an episode I still feel this avolition
Fortunately I can still read books!
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I wish we as a bunch could beat the sh_t out of it all.
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Like I just would have liked to live a life without all this paranoia and such.
There’s no rule books or guide books to get you through this. ( A reason why this website is valuable to members! ). You just blunder your way through life with all this rubbish that is no fault of your own. And then your judged against normal people…or their idea of normal.
Don’t get me wrong. I got on medication eventually and lead a great life. It’s nothing to write home about but I’m content and happy. I live within my means and I do what I can. I just would have liked to have the opportunity with my brain and no schizophrenia to live life. Just to compete in the universe without this ball and chain.
So. Not being able to compete with society. That is my biggest gripe!
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It’s hard not impossible. Stop feeling sorry for yourself you will only make things worse.
I don’t want to deny my true feelings. I am upset about certain things full stop.
Doesn’t mean I don’t look at other sides too. Its not the end of the world as I see things right now
Just gotta accept the sad part n move on with what I’ve got left
Which yea makes it harder
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Schizophrenia is all about loss. It causes us to grieve, and people grieve in different ways.
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Dwelling on your misfortune is causing a greater problem, all things can be overcome if you can’t find a way to overcome any given thing you where never going to make it, you where always going to find something to drag you down. Loss is life even if you’re healthy all things cone to an end. health is the ability to overcome problems not a lack of problems
Delusions and barely feeling safe leaving the house.
I also feel like my smarts and intelligence have been hindered as well by my sz because I’ve lately been becoming more and more forgetful than I’ve ever been, moreso than when i was younger.
Hallucinations during a bad mood are also a kick in the ass as they’re made worse by my already horrible state of mind.
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