I'm really sad

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I’m sad.

I feel like the world is ending.

I hate that my disease is progressing to my hands. I’m worried that it’s going to take over my speech too. I prayed so hard for it to not take over my speech.

I wonder if I’ll ever be able to live a healthy life.

I can still type and write a few sentences but my hands are still pins-and-needles all the time and I hate that so much. It’s becoming stiff to the point that I can no longer open a bottle.

Because of that I can no longer pursue graduate school to become an interpreter.

I’m still in psychosis sh*thole and I’m still peeing myself every day due to commands.

Will it ever get better?

I don’t even know anymore.

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I have been through two major episodes one at age 20 and the other around age 38

I am 53 and in the best position in life I have ever been in

I have everything to live for except my own children as I am too old

I will dare say I will never give up

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What is causing the pins and needles? Have you been to the hospital yet?

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Don’t give up leaves cause there’s still hope.

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Neurological, genetic disease. Rare disease basically.

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That sounds tough to deal with. :frowning:

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It’s behind this whole psychotic break. I was too depressed after giving up my studies due to it.

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I am so sorry about your physical health situation. What happened with the pdoc appointment? Are you getting help?

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The office declined my request for an earlier appointment. But good news is that my psychosis is improving. I have had fewer episodes but I unfortunately see things now.

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That’s just wrong. In your country, are you allowed to switch doctors?

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I am, but he is the only doctor that sees patients with schizophrenia in the hospital.

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Wow. I’m so sorry.

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I’m glad your seeing this doctor I just wish it was sooner

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Same here. Good thing is, I managed to not wet myself today. That’s big improvement.

I’ve realized, as I hear voices in the bathroom, I automatically urinate on myself. But me not doing that means good improvement.

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I’m happy to hear your doing better

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