I would make a poll out of this but I don’t know how.
So can you feel sadness? Do you ever feel like crying because of your life with this illness?
Can you feel joy at anything?
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I am not sure - recently for the past 3 months - I have been depressed and 2016 on Latuda was a rollercoaster of drinking and negativity.
I need take time to become stable and positive.
As for the emotions - not sure. yeah I do - I feel like what is missing right now in my life is a sense of success and pleasure and reward - when I do something I want or achieve something. This is what is missing?
What about you?
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It took me a while, but I now feel a full range of emotions. For years, everything was vaguely numb, wth periodic outbursts of rage. Then, after I got on meds and in therapy, it was like someone turned on a switch in my head. For the first time since childhood, I felt everything. It was very overwhelming, and I hated it at first. I had to learn how to handle every new emotion I experienced, and work on not being afraid of them. It was very confusing and difficult, but now I’m pretty well-adjusted.
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thanks for giving us some positivity and hope =)
Yea I think we’re on the same page here. I just wrote something that answers this on the other thread.
But yea, I know what you mean. I can’t accomplish much either and it really pisses me off. I used to get a lot done, I never had a problem making friends or what have you. Now I get outdone by pretty much anyone who doesn’t have mental illness. I have a college degree half of a masters degree under my belt and guys that pump gas are higher functioning than I am. The problem is that I don’t like the meds, and while they keep me stable. The side effects suck.
Without them I am ok for a few months maybe even years and then I become psychotic and disabled again.
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I can’t feel sadness at all. I never feel joy. I never seem to get angry anymore either. I don’t seem to fear anymore either. All I feel is contentedness. In all situations. Just content. Even. I have no emotions. And that’s ok by me. After a lifetime of super over intense sad emotions, I welcome no emotions. This is a good thing. I’d rather have no emotions than too many.
Yeah the last time I cried about it was this week. Woo.
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I think I feel emotions. I just think that I don’t display them properly.
People look at me like I’m a zombie. I don’t talk right or look people in the eye. I yawn sometimes and that makes people think I’m not interested in what’s going on. I say “I guess” and “or whatever” a lot too. Then people will say, “You guess? Either yes or no, not you guess.”
Yeah, it feels like a huge marshmallow.
I think I feel a lot more inside than my facial expressions show.
For a while though, after all my outlet for anger were taken from me one by one, I would just become an instant monster in a rage when I spied something that I was not allowed to get angry over.
I have a history of PTSD from severe abuse and subsequently being numb from pain. Sometimes I feel that numbness. It’s overwhelming on the inside and frozen on the outside. It’s too much to feel it all. Aside from that occasional numbness, I ‘feel’. I cried today. I was sad. I was sad because of how I have been treated in my life. When I see my children, which I will this weekend, I am delighted and in Heaven. I guess that means I feel emotion.
I feel scared. And I feel guilt. And I feel sad. In that order.
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Nope. I can say, “I am angry,” but I can’t say, “I feel angry”. I also have a short range of emotions in the mental state sense. Emotional and social issues are my biggest schizotypal difficulties.
What medication!?
For me, it was Geodon. But every brain is different, so it might be something else for you. I just wanted to give hope that it can get better.
The only thing special about its pharmacology that I can see is its inhibition of reuptake of noradrenaline and serotonin.
I sometimes miss my Mum and get a bit sad. I get angry a lot (which I never used to). I feel content when my kitty decides to sleep next to me on the couch. I feel love.
I suppose I do feel emotions, I just don’t display them properly.
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I don’t always feel what a "normal " person would feel. I react differently, but my emotions are intense.
Yeah, I tend towards anger. But I can also feel desperately sad. Sometimes momentarily happy…
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I feel everything but guilt. I’ve only felt guilt once or twice in my life and it was after I’d done something that was impossible to justify even in my own mind
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Right now I feel very depressed and I feel like life is passing me by, but my emotions only last for a few seconds at best, I wish that I could cry because that used to make me feel better when I was depressed but I cant