Wow, I had the same! I felt I was all alone in whole universe people surrounding me despite their different looks just being different reflections of me. They were saying what I was thinking, doing what I was feeling (e.g.when inside I was crying I saw people round me physically crying). It was extremely scary…
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I believe I have crystals in my brain which are password protected and that a politician named Barnaby Joyce and the Department of Agriculture are trying to retrieve the password to gain access to the crystals.
I also believe that the media broadcast parts of my thoughts and my life to select few individuals who spread the news to others.
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i have several delusions related to paranoia, one of them is catastrophic thinking, expecting the worst or something terrible to happen. for example the phone rings and my first thought is someone is ringing to tell me a person close to me has died
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yea feels like someone or something is watching me 24/7. its so convincing to believe that im a part of some bigger experiment. but i do not care anymore.
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I used to believe the goverment or certain celebrities can watch me… I’m on meds now so some of it is gone.
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I was thinking sometimes (how will be my reaction in the next rain?) that when its raining is because God is sad with me, as He is crying due some things that I did. Strange, no?
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Mine r people coming after me. I think moving to noisier area might help. Its too quiet in the country. I hear everything (real or not) & I live alone. So after dark I’m petrified most of the time. I have a zillion flood lights outside because my house is so isolated & surrounded by woods. Maybe a pet would help. Either way, I think I need to sell this place in Soudertown & move into a noisy city.
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i have lots voice and illusion about WW2.
i am without meds and i do believe when people die.our soul goes back to the history.
i am in panic all the time.because ww2 is so horrible.
after i read this post.i feel its paranoid.but my voice tell truth twice.
i don’t know how to convince myself take meds.also because lots airplane crshes.its prepare for WW2.isn’t it
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I am also plagued by persecutory delusions. I tried the “city” type housing situation but all i did was peek out the windows all day watching the neighbors and checking every noise i heard. Glad to see another pennsylvanian in the forums @Alone !! I thought everybody was down south, out west, or different country. Nice to know someone is close by and all this isnt just made up (another delusion, lol). I am also afraid of the dark, sad to say a grown man scared of the dark, tho it has gotten much better. There were months that i couldnt go outside in the dark and just peeked thru windows with a massive spotlight. My dogs def help me to know whats real or whats not but sometimes i feel they feed off me when im uneasy and then we all just chase shadows. But overall they are a big help. My cat however is no help what so ever! Lol.
My dog should be fathering a litter soon and i will have puppies to find homes for if your interested!! Will be Great dogs and very protective and well mannered (if trained properly). Let me know if you would be interested since we are local to each other. Tho they will be mastiff mixed so not sure if its wise to have 1 as a first dog without experience in training and raising dogs, just due to size. Pm me if you would be interested in a pup.
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@yuying (and anyone else not on meds) Are you off meds because you don’t have access or because you don’t want to take them? Meds have helped me tremendously with my extreme paranoia. I was convinced for awhile that I was going to be sacrificed as part of the brain study that I am in. It was very painful and distracting. I still have my delusion (that I’m part of a brain study) but it is far less powerful and distracting and the paranoia has lessened considerably. I would strongly recommend that you try to get into counseling and get a pdoc to get you some meds. You shouldn’t suffer. Meds help.
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heres one . there is a demon inserting thoughts and living in my head. im scaredim scared the demon is tryng to take my soul and i have to get it back and pray to the universe. the uninverse wants me to get my soul back but it cant intervene because it is simply an essence. the essence of god and all. i can tell just because of these synchronicitiies and the signs i see related to me daily. the most evil spirit created then demons. but i have to learn how to cast the demon out myself.
heres another: im scared the police are secretly monitoring me and following me and they have a complete case against me. everyone hates me. theyre after me too. anytime i see them i get so scared.
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@arrgghh Are you medicated? I’m so sorry that you have to deal with that. I used to be overwhelmed every day with intrusive thoughts and paranoia that I would be physically and emotionally sacrificed. Meds have helped me to stabilize. I am always fearful of relapse but I keep taking my meds.
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@47average yes im on meds well im in between meds or something . its complicated. none of them even alleviate my “symtpoms” so its not like it matters. i learn how to live with it though
just posting this has got me thinking about it. my thoughts are getting confusing and really specific…i wish i could sleep
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You describe me exactly!!! Window watching - I also still debate if everyone on here is all from the same area and are spying on me or just in my mind. Dark/night is a big trigger as well. I don’t go outside at night usually for any reason. When I have to - I wake everyone in theouse up, turn on all the lights and bring a spotlight with lots of people with me - because they won’t just freaking go to the car and get what I need for me.
I am off meds because of a change in doctor - hopefully will back on something soon.
just people u know? or including strangers? i have this too… just a feeling of shame and mistrust.
Yeah i suspect everyone including strangers. Maybe
i am too sensitive?
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yeah… i read that paranoia comes from projecting your own shame and guilt outwards.
Probably. That makes sense