Hey, CJ - Iâm editing your poll because youâve made votes public, something that most people donât see until theyâve already voted, and something that makes many people here paranoid and anxious.
I stuck in my own delusion instead - delusional guilt, the idea that youâre causing people to get sick, suffer, die, that youâve killed people or are responsible for tragedies.
Ya, my delusion is several combined. Mind control, being constantly watched/monitored, believing I am the savior, blocked from accessing my âsuperpowersââŚ
Itâs like a buffet for me and I have a little of everything on my plate.
number one for me is mind control. I sincerely believe there are a bunch of scientists at the University of Washington in Seattle (Yes, I have a specific place) that have the ability to completely control my thoughts, feelings and actions. Sometimes they let me just do my own thing but they can, in a second, take over and I will be scared shitless, dancing down the street or harming myself or whatever they decide.
I was just laughing about something I was thinking. My brother-in-law and me sitting at a table, like the one for the Mad-Hatter and the Rabbit. Music from Anthony Robbinsâ âGiant Stepsâ audiobook was playing. We were eating nuts, with him passing some over to me across the table. He was singing along to the song, saying, âAnd-you-will-ha-ave-yo-ur-nuts!â Iâm still laughing about it. Itâs pretty funny lol.
Even though I am paranoid quite often, I still have a sense of humor about it. I really believe my delusion but I also have some insight. Whenever I drive (on I-5) past Seattle and the UW Medical Center, I think âThose bastards are only a few miles from here looking at me and my brain on their computer screens!â
I know I am crazy. Even though it can be painful, itâs funny.
I hope your delusion smooths over too. Sounds like a disturbing theme.