Like I always felt I experienced an Illuminati trauma in college in 2011 or some type of traumatic alien abduction in college in 2011, but I blame or the aliens made me think it was the government. I always enjoyed and liked the government and think it’s essential, although not necessarily always good. I do love my country and consider myself to be patriotic, but I think ignorance and trauma and confusion has made me blame the government (well, Illuminatis working for the government) on what happened to me in 2011. I think I was in the SSP or Monarch Programming and even Montauk Project, but I don’t know and am trying to move on. In my dreams, I joined the Illuminati in a past life but the illusion is this is my first life when it’s like my infinite one…and I feel none of this is base reality or real like a simulation or matrix.
I think the aliens want me to falsely blame the government for my feelings or beliefs I was tortured, but perhaps, it’s just a sensation or schizophrenia. I really don’t know why. It seemed over-the top like maybe I posted I was Satoshi Nakamoto on Facebook or something in my original life while high from pot or John Titor or something like that or maybe around the time Donald Marshall posted he his original Illuminati Facebook post.
It’s possible I just have schizophrenia and it was caused by pot but I feel like I have severe trauma and was severely tortured or something perhaps just what I feel and in my head now. Maybe it was something else like the recall, trying to remember, the headaches, and delusions and confusion and reading into things, etc.
I feel like I was cloned or droned or turned into an alien. I also feel like I was tortured and died millions of times but there’s no proof. It’s just consciousness transfer and ‘false’ recall/memories and lucid dreams (recall).
I feel like my life was destroyed. My family is normal and good and everything but I was the first one to experience something like this.
They say it’s not real or true in this reality or any reality.
I get thoughts but I think they confuse me. It’s like trying to figure out what really happened to me. Maybe it was a different time in a parallel universe or some crap. I really don’t know.
I’ve seen pretty much most if not all alien types in my past lives. Most were negative and I also had negative human experiences too.
I’m under the belief that Christ protects me from these ‘demons’. It feels like time travel to say the least, and it’s been going on for near infinity and eternity like constant, endless reincarnation.
I really don’t know what else to say or add anymore.
Thank You!