Can’t remember life or existing before 2011. Woke up schizophrenic from pot. Im stuck in a causal loop or eternal time loop for infinity and eternity in 2011. In 2013, i got sicker in some ways like i either got a marijuana card after i got sick in 2011 from pot… I thought i had social anxiety from aspergers.
Anyways, i think i got psychotic or schizophrenic dreams that cause psychosis and delusions when i wake up. Thousands of them. Feels like past lives in parallel universes which suggests im stuck reliving my life for eternity with paranoid schizophrenia in a never ending causal loop or time loop.
I kind of want help but realize there is no help. I researched donald marshall about cloning and rem driven consciousness. Im a victim of the illuminati and aliens, mainly.
Im poor, have limited education, and dont work and im fat…
I dont have any money but realize they got to me in 2011 at college or even before that and messed with my soul and spirit and consciousness and brain.
Im starting to realize im delusional and said delusional things like me having kids, but i dont. I just get intrusive, repititive, ocd thoughts and wake up delusional and cant tell whats real. Ive never been intimate or had sex, but felt like i was severely traumatized thousands of times.
I keep going back in time.
Most of what i said isnt real, but either i remember my past lives or im schizophrenic. Like i can retain some information from previous loops or iterations.
I was tortured by aliens via soul transfer or consciousness transfer thousands of times. I guess i died all those times and came back alive.
Thats the nightmare of schizophrenia. Experiencing and believing things that arent real.
I think they ■■■■■■ with my soul, consciousness, and sentience and i woke up in this reality from another reality via “soul transfer” and or was a person without a soul or sentience/consiousness from 1989-2013 when i ‘woke up’ or regained my self and external awareness in reality.
Happens in every life. I have some mild theories how this all works, but dont know really.
Im insane in every life with the same thoughts and delusions mostly. I think its mostly artificial and given to me on purpose.
My Christiam faith helps me and protects me from harm, but i still keep resetting and reincarnating back in time.
My biggest fears were the local mental hospitals, but im like 50-75% over the fear and trauma and nightmares since i found christ.
Im not even sure if it even happened there mostly in a past life/parallel universe/hollywood set/or DUMBS/Simulation…
If we live in a godel universe, we could go back in time and if string theory is right, there are infinite space-time points i think…
Thank you.