The thing I am missing now bcz of sz is working. I miss working, it made me feel better about myself feeling useful, making money and talking about it to ppl.
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Having a sharp mind. I feel really dim/dull now.
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Yea I miss that, I was much sharper before sz. I was the best in my classes in college. But now I think my cognition can handle a low stress job like the one I had while I was on Latuda.
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The ability to focus on movies. Takes me so long to watch a movie in 20 minute segments
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My problem is that most movies or tv shows either trigger me or dont interest me. I am extremely picky but if I like something I can watch it all even if its a 2hr movie.
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Man I recently rented Indiana Jones in 4K. When I was a kid I would watch those movies on vcr. I had laser focus back then. Was pretty upsetting comparing to now where I can’t make it past 20 minutes
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Making money, physical and mental health, my own family, career, etc. I think I am mentally 22/23 since I got schizophrenia back then and haven’t really lived a real/full life and developed mentally, spiritually, and emotionally. I haven’t lived a life and grown past that. You know life responsibilities, bills, credit, and all that crap. I look 30ish and I’m biologically 31, but act like a kid due to schizophrenia and possibly Asperger’s.
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I’m my own worst enemy, really. I have so much doubt in myself I’m afraid to make any mistakes in life.
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Yea I also feel that sz stopped my growth in life since I was diagnosed at 22y.o.
Imagine getting schizophrenia in high school and never experiencing life or fully developing. I’m blessed/lucky, but feel it happened in a past life, where I got schizophrenia from aliens or being an inventor and never recovering, living life, and being worse off.
It’s a delusion, but feels real like I have memories of my past incarnations…
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Me, too. I feel so stupid, nowadays. I have trouble speaking out loud. I talk in circles, I ramble, I pause frequently because I lose my train of thought. I forget words all the time, even simple words. My memory is terrible, in general. I forget events, conversations, places, people’s names (even family).
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Being somewhat fit and regular weight and doing skateboarding the whole day.
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I miss being fit too, I gained 150lb since being on meds and since having negative symptoms.
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I also feel that since my diagnosis 11 years ago, I haven’t mentally matured. I wish I could be transported back in time.
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The middle-class American life.
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Everything just normal stuff
And working wish I could work
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oh haha. Ya, I wish it would stop 
I mean I don’t get a real do-over, but I keep waking up backwards in time with psychosis after I dropped out of college. It hasn’t stopped/gone away like groundhog day/primer the movies.
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Haha I think you just miss college days-- so do I. Best years of my life.
best/worst years of my life. I just have a time traveler delusion that won’t go away 
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I miss not hearing voices, and not getting delusional.
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