Things you miss from before your illness

-having fun
-laughing
-creative thoughts, original thoughts
-living in california
and more

yours?

pre-illness…sigh

remember the good times everybody… it helps

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I miss all this too! :cry:

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Just depresses me more tbh. Especially when the illness is the reason that it ended or caused it to end. - How do you pick up the threads of an old life? How do you go on… when in your heart you begin to understand… there is no going back? There are some things that time cannot mend… some hurts that go too deep… that have taken hold. - lotr.

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Honestly. Doing drugs.

Original and creative thoughts come and go.

I had a strong sense of self, also had a healthy monologue from first waking up to going to sleep.(it did eventually become obsessive and psychotic)

I can’t barely think at all any more, I have to either communicate or do things. Forced extroversion.

My imagination is more or less totally shut down by default now. I can use it but it never comes to life or goes anywhere. Just get a still image of what I want to see.

I also have this nagging feeling of lack of future now. Everything seems out of reach or intimidating based on a history of failure and then basically being rendered inoperable. I know this part will all pass with time.

The subject matter of my mind was always topical to my peer group. Now I don’t really have any subject matter at all to discuss aside from all the bs entailed with my particular psychosis. This will probably also pass with time.

I used have one of those what are they called “jobs” I kind of miss that too. I don’t want my money cut out from under me because of some technicality. I was the boss at my job, kept everything running the way it should. Even after admitting to hearing voices and engaging in an act that could be considered sexual harassment they still debated whether to keep me around.

And girlfriends… That’s probably what I miss most. Thinking about that just puts me in a negative state.

I was too young to have anything before my illness.

Oh what a beautiful picture. you’re very handsome and your sister is so beautiful. One of the things I miss the most is I used to party till 4 am and go to work the next day. I was always full of energy. young, wild and free in other words. I enjoyed my life thoroughly at that time. Here’s a picture of me and my best friend in Beirut. Now, if I party, it takes me a couple days to recover and fix my sleep cycle.

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Part of that is just getting older. But being as mentally strong as one can be at all times is part of managing this illness. So I get where your coming from.

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youre on the right?

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The only thing I genuinely miss is my athleticism. I had so much energy, so much power.

I’m continuing to evolve, however. I’m living life as a recluse and sort of feel like a lone vagrant. But, it’s still fun sometimes. My evolution isn’t over 'til I die, and even then - who knows?

Life isn’t over. You can still have fun and stuff. Hell you might even appreciate good times and moments of health more than you did before.

I reminded myself that earlier this summer while I was spinning my little cousin around in the air to entertain him. I thought of how I had a childhood and was a five year old boy once. I just really let the image of him being happy sink in.

Because when the ■■■■ hits the fan it’s good to have a memory to cling to. It’s like a light in the dark. And ■■■■ does hit the fan.

I was bitter about life before the illness. I just enjoyed being angry and cold and perfectly calm and disciplined all at once. Some people who have known me for the long haul have told me that my path today is actually better, even though I didn’t choose it.

Maybe it is better that I suffered so much that I learned to appreciate life and not live to destroy it.

Don’t even get me started on what I would have done if it weren’t for schizophrenia.

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I miss feeling capable to do different things. But now I feel capable to do other things that I didn’t before. So it balances out.

My life seems better now, but there are some things I miss…but most the good things are still good they’ve just changed.

Not having symptoms.

I dont miss anything. I dont let symptoms keep me back. I live how I would without the illness. No burdens.

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There’s no reason to remember the good times if they make you dissatisfied with the present. Know when to let things go, don’t sabotage your recovery. Anhedonia in schizophrenia is mostly about what you expect your reaction to positive events will be. Anhedonia even when good things are happening is more a symptom of depression. And depression is rarely permanent.

Also, screw you Samsung auto-correct. You are drunk.

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feeling i had everything under control
“free will”
progress of my goals being fullfilled

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I miss the way I felt in myself. I miss having fun. I miss going on nights out.

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I miss the motivation I had for life and the ability to follow through with goals. I got sz at 18 so I never went to varsity. In my teens I had a lot of motivation. I miss that single mindedness and determination I had. Now I am just a drifter in life with no ambition.

I think these are still possible - you don’t have to give up on these things. They may have come more easily when you weren’t ill, but by appreciating the times when they do still come you can still live a very positive life. I see this all the time here in the forums.

Focusing on the things you’ve lost is not a positive thing to do. Instead, focus and be thankful for the things you still have (which many people don’t have).

Try to stay positive.

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Try to slowly get out and get more exercise. If you sit around - your athleticism will decline - it happens to everyone who doesn’t exercise. Look at MOrtimer Mouse in these forums - he stays in great shape and exercises regularly - so its definitely possible.

Sometimes I miss the carefree life I’ve lived. The self medicated years. Booze and cigarettes and girls and late parties. I miss being energetic, creative and full of iniative. I miss my job I had. I miss my house I had. I miss the girls I loved before. I miss being full of life. I miss having lots of friends. I miss being free and outspoken. Hell I miss a lot…still I have alot to be grateful for despite this illness

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