I like it to begin with the feelings
Then the anger kicks in after couple of months
Then im not sleeping or eating
Then im in hospital back on them
How are you off meds?
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The world becomes an occult Disney land for me. I lose insight quite quickly. My functioning goes to zero. Then if I’m lucky I eventually make it to hospital somehow.
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Oh I’m pretty much completely batshit crazy when I’m off meds.
A lot more skinny though!
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Only tried for a week… was talking to ghosts again.
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Completely delusional, hearing voices doing crazy stuff high as a kite or crying
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I have managed to go without medications but it often ended in psychosis eventually. I’m much smarter off my meds, can think more quickly, but my thinking is maybe not so down to earth, more delusional. It’s like a PC with better processing speed but bad software.
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pretty normal at the beginning tbh
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no sleep stressed, on edge, fearful, slightly psychotic not stable
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I stop eating, I stop sleeping, I become paranoid, then I get psychotic.
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I simply become obsessed, agitated, paranoid then I become delusional and highly paranoid.
Mania, depression sets in with Mixed episodes.
I quickly lose all insight and end up somehow in the psych hospital.
My psychotic episodes are waking nightmares!
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I feel well during some weeks or months. Then I cannot function due to psychosis
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The longest I’ve gone has been about 6 months or so.
During that period, I was super agitated and ill-tempered for no reason. Generally suspicious, paranoid, and all the fun things.
I also isolate far more than I usually do, which is a lot as it is.
Never hit psychosis, as I went back on meds, but if I would have gone another 3 months without them, I feel like I would have gone to the hospital.
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off meds im worse than i was before starting meds. idk how but before meds i could mask my symptoms for the most part as long as i avoided weed but it was still seemingly endless suffering. now if i were to stop meds i go into a violent rage followed by feeling so bad that i would be suicidal. maybe it was from stopping meds cold turkey but every time it was terrible and I can’t risk it anymore
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Thats good that you know your limits now
I’ve been officially labeled treatment resistant ON meds. I think I wouldn’t have an ounce of insight off them.
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I don’t really want to think about that right now tbh
its not the best part of me 
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More animal than man
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I can pass for normal until I don’t.
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I don’t know…the last time I stopped meds was back in 1998. a year later I was stabilized in a state hospital ward. wrote a book about it…never again…been on meds ever since…don’t wanna know !!
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Happier but crazy!
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