ive never been hospitalized. no one ever told me i should get help or that im acting crazy, no trouble with the law. i will admit that when my psychosis first started i had some odd behavior but only when i was high (weed) and when i sobered up i was able to be chill despite having auditory hallucinations. my voices havent come back since ive started meds, even the few times ive stopped meds they didnt come back, only partially after smoking weed but not enough that it felt like before
i take the meds for my peace of mind, not to keep out of trouble. i dont think i really need them as much as most but my anxiety of going back to my worst place (and some of the stuff ive read here) keeps me on them.
i think my diagnosis is wrong, i think i have weed induced psychosis in addition to depression+anxiety.
the past couple days since ive increased my antidepressant ive felt great and have been stepping out my comfort zone and while doing this i realize that the lasting symptoms i have are really just bad negative thinking habits, low confidence, catastrophizing and anxiety. when i dont give it attention and just focus on doing something im fine
i will continue to take my meds. just got triggered hit with a wave of stuff mentally.
i guess my streak of feeling normal was short lived and partly due to less triggering external stimuli
I’ve never been hospitalised (touch wood). I take the meds because I get depressed, anxious and eventually suicidal if I don’t take them. Things are really psychologically painful if I don’t take them. For that reason among a few I stay on track. I’m stress sensitive, and too much causes a meltdown.
You’ve got to keep trying to improve and maybe get off meds, but in my experience it is best to take it slowly
i can relate. the most recent time i stopped meds i was crying and staying in bed in the dark and only coming out to eat once a day. psychologically when im off meds i feel more irritable and when my symptoms are bad i am in constant turmoil as if i were arguing 24/7. i can control myself enough to not get in trouble or hospitalized but its alot of suffering for me
