Narrowing down my struggles of living with SZ i know the scariest times were a struggle of what i believe. Example,is the ground really under my feet,any sane person would not qeustion that,and in my reasonable mind i didnt, but the voices and force of the SZ would leave me in a placed forced to doubt even simple things like this, im not as scared of these nightmares anymore unless it attacts the heart of who i am,is god for me or not,when it starts attacking my vital core beliefs i feel fear, i can manage those attacts pretty well now,but they tend to happen again sometimes,i know this can be a scary thought but its not anout u or anybody else,its just been my own struggle,everybody has there own struggle with this thorn in this life
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Losing my mind completely and ending up in a hospital for life
And driving too I fear
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Having been delusional about everything and therefore not having really lived as anybody. I hold onto my faith in God, but everything else is smoke and mirrors. Will I lose consciousness at some point? Who will I be then?
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Me too, Im afraid of becoming permanently paralyzed
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It’s really an irrational fear…but I fear losing my mind and ending up in a coma from short circuiting my brain. It’ll never happen.
I also fear losing my klonopin prescription when my pdoc retires
Idk what I’d do
Being left all alone.
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Probably being homeless.
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The thing I fear the most is that I’ll never be sure if I’m really crazy or if the voices are right all along, and I’m making a mistake by pursuing a path of “recovery”.
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relapsing to the point of no hope of coming back… and ending up alone.
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Same as ttp and j, relapsing for life.
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winding up in the “garbage”. judy
Fear of being abandoned and homeless.
to have love leave… either in giving or receiving
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I am most fearful of two things,one is losing my current good lifestyle,the other is losing my sanity because of not taking meds
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Being stuck where I am for the rest of my life. Never moving forward or accomplishing my dreams.
That is my WORST FEAR too. It’s crazy being sz because as long as you’re medicated you are aware that you’re insane. If we were beyond repair, we wouldn’t even realize we were nuts so it wouldn’t bother us. There would be no fear, delusions, confusion, anger, misperceptions or any other bull ■■■■.
It’s a toss up between getting diabetes and the government no longer paying for my meds leaving me with an over $2,000 a month price tag. On the other hand I imagine if the government stopped paying for everyone’s meds that pharmaceuticals might make the prices more reasonable.
Afraid of losing my status as the most badass scz. I’m afraid of falling from the height of killer mad scientist to just sick.
Lots of fear in general, but narrowing it down to my day, I’d say crowded, small spaces. I went to get my driver’s permit today and had to leave early. Who turns on Christmas music in a tiny crowded and boring place?
unfortunately, everyone.
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