I believe I’m being poisoned to give me cancer, sepsis etc. to terrorize me and murder me.
It’s a delusion. Nobody cares that you have sz. I can promise you that no one is poisoning you either.
I thought something similar once. It’s complete and utter ■■■■■■■■
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nobody bothers me these days
@qwertie Nobody is actively trying to kill you. We are a vulnerable population, though, so I understand your fears. I have fear, too, but I must not fall prey to that fear. Live your life!
However, after reading youtube comments on mental health posts where random commentators state that we should be put down/euthanized/etc…sterilized//etc…i totally fear being at the least–interment camped in a prison style setting.
next i fear being sterilized against my will.
lastly, i fear being murdered off somehow.
We must be strong in the face of stigma and hate, though! We have the right to exist. We have the right to hold jobs. We have the right to be independent and to have medical care.
Take care!
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I will meet my ancestors in Valhalla…so I fear no death…but welcome the next adventure like an old friend…but I know he will come when the time is right and I should enjoy my life until I meet him…and we will battle and I will fall…for death is master of all…
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Hah I remember when I was in the hospital the voices made me think that the doctors were going to euthanize me. So I kindly asked the nurse not to euthanize me and let me die from the draino I ingested. She looked really weirded out or terrified or something.
I have had such thoughts or and similar.
Hope you feel better soon anyway.
I don’t think anyone gives much thought to me (except family). No one is trying to kill me.
I thought that the government tested a new AIDS virus on me once because I was a crazy person. The shame and the embarrassment from those beliefs eroded my self esteem so deeply that I still can’t look at people on the street.
Honestly if i had these kind of delusions they would really support my ego, thinking everyone is focused on me. But my ego is stellar without it, thats just the way im wired
I wish someone would try to euthanize me because of my psychosis. I’ve already got the insanity plea in place.
I don’t fear being euthanized but I have felt the pain of terrifying paranoia. It can seem very, very real. I still get it. I fear being emotionally and/or physically tormented, tortured or sacrificed for the purposes of a brain study. When I feel like that, I up my risperidone. I hope you feel better. Fear is no fun.
I’m more fearful of being euthanized for believing in God than for being euthanized for being schizophrenic.
I got selective amnesia from hanging with wealthy sex abuser’s victim who was getting him more. The people who lived alone had nervous break + 10+ years of voices + insomnia. Is one-topic amnesia and plays flashbacks like PTSD. I do work so I won’t have rest of my memory fried. EVen when the blocked memories were being laid down, was working in difficult life/death job and never missed a beat…I work as I’m able to I won’t get harmed again or functioning worsen.