Starting from around age 11 (I’m 15 now), I’ve believed that my parents are drugging me up with sedatives or such. I don’t currently believe in it though.
More recent unusual beliefs of mine include believing that there is cyanide in my stuff (Original source of cyanide would’ve been the chemistry lab, that’s what I thought)
and that there is poisonous gas in our home.
I used to go somewhere outside because of the belief that there was gas in our apartment.
Also I believed that my parents (especially Dad) were going to kill me. My psychiatrist thinks these were symptoms of psychosis but I doubt it…
They are symptoms of psychosis and paranoia. Me I thought my brother is trying to kill me so I threw knives on him. I thought my parents are poisoning my food and drinks, it turned out that it was true bcz they put my Abilify in my food and drinks after grinding it, I caught them.
Because they’re not true, impossible to happen, not logical, they make no sense. Parents never start abusing their children later in life, they start very young. Even if your parents were abusers, no parents in the world want to poison and kill their children. When its abuse, its rape and physical/verbal violence.
Its bcz your brain chemicals were imbalanced, meds balance brain chemicals to normal levels.
Szics have high dopamine, antipsychotics normalize the dopamine levels.
I also didn’t really hallucinate, just delusions. You have delusions just like me. Delusion are the most dangerous bcz they made me nearly kill my brother and myself.
Psychosis and schizophrenia are similar, both need meds. Long term psychosis or severe psychosis leads to a schizophrenia diagnosis. I was diagnosed with psychosis for a year. I got more than one psychosis without meds in 6 months and therefore my diagnosis changed to schizophrenia.
They decrease the abnormally high dopamine in our brain. Really you are very lucky that Abilify worked for you as its the med with the least side effects that exists, its practically 0 side effects.
Some get akathisia from it and for some like me it doesn’t work. You didn’t get any side effect bcz you already tried Abilify before.
I am on Risperdal, made me gain 165lb, have 0 motivation, apathy and other negative and cognitive symptoms. It also gave me male tits.
Alogia is when you speak little, like not engaging in conversations. I also have it. But Abilify should improve this. Also talk about subjects that interest you, about the news and weather with your parents, family or friends.
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