Went out to sell an echo dot to the pawn shop. And promptly freaked out in the middle of town. Call it a panic attack. I hadnt seen a soul for days - and the amount of people around frankly freaked me out. So i shot into a pub i know, where i knew my mates - and yes i had a pint of guiness. Just the one - but my god it was bloody lovely.
Yes i was a bad boy for having it - but it was my goto response to getting out of a stressful situation.
Sorry but i dont feel guilty in the slightest. At least i got reassured by my mates who were all worried about me cos they had not seen me - and made me feel better that im not on my own.
Im not about to start drinking again. I had a wobble. Im well overdue my jab as well - so that probably didnt help.
So im Back to being on my own with the cat.
At least i got some fresh air…
We all lose our balance once and awhile. Just scratch it off as a slight mishap and move along. At least you got to enjoy some social time with friends.
Yeah thats my thoughts. I noticed they are selling Heineken 0% in there now. So next time i wanna visit il have one of those instead. It was nice to be missed.
Yeah apart from the initial freakout - i feel better for having some human contact. It was bloody nice that i was missed, yet ive been sitting here for days wrongly thinking im billy-no-mates.
The one was enough for me. I might start going back in there again - so long as my willpower holds up. And drink the Alcohol Free Lager. As scary as it was - the isolation is getting to me now.
Falling off the wagon is okay as long as you get right back on. It’s a slippery slope, moderation. We tend to tell ourselves that, since we’ve already slipped once, it’s okay to just continue the unhealthy behavior and start over tomorrow, or on Monday, or on the first of next month. That said, I know that you’re a grown, intelligent man who can make his own decisions, and that you know yourself better than any of us know you, so no matter what you do, we will support you through it. Just be careful, and look after yourself, and of course, congrats on having the willpower to socialize while holding out with so much restraint. Take care! xx
will your pals be ok with you not drinking? I mean will they want to buy you a drink? and do you have enough will power to turn them down?
I think maybe just short visits would be best if your trying to not drink again. the temptation will be too high, I can’t go into bars and stay sober, so I don’t go to bars anymore.
it’s nice to have friends though. and best wishes on your sobriety. like circle of fifths said you’re a grown man, you can be responsible for yourself. if you can get away with an occasional drink without going over board more power to you. or maybe just stick to the Heineken 0. best wishes.
Mate. Proud you had one and walked out. It’s never easy going without but it’s a marathon and not a sprint. Be strong and kudos to fessing up to it all!
Nah it will be fine. They will no doubt take the piss - but they wont be mean about it. I dont intend sitting in a bar everyday like i used too. Just once a week so i can get some social life and keep in touch with my mates.