It’s such a cunning and baffling thing. I lost track of my previous quit date so that probably didn’t help me very much.
My folks are away. But I swear it’s more than just will power depleting… and it feels almost as if there is a nutrition value to it. Almost.
I’ve posted under the influence once before and it was a little embarrassing for and to me.
If you’re an alcoholic you’re in a lot of trouble. I battle with the stuff myself. I have three years and nine months sober.
Start going to AA meetings. That might help you
Thanks guys… and yes I’m an alcoholic. To encapsulate everything: I shouldn’t post methinks.
Thanks @crimby and @LilyoftheValley
It’s good you recognize you need help. I’m loath to suspend you when your looking for support but would encourage you not to post if your drinking. It’s against the rules and you seem to acknowledge it leads to worse outcomes.
If your struggling I’d recommend you talk to someone close to you who can understand what is going on. Some things we need help in overcoming.
I would stay away from bars and other people who drink. It might help you to get some other beverages to drink, like non-alcoholic beer or non-alcoholic ciders, if you miss the passtime of drinking. That has worked for me.
Just call it a slip. Get back on the wagon again. You’ll be ok.
Ive fallen off the wagon many times mate. Been every 4 months or so lately - so i know where you are coming from.
Just dont beat yourself up about it and climb back on. For me the cock-ups are slowly getting longer apart!
If you feel you need to read this site - but are drinking just ask a mod to silence you - and you can still read the posts but not reply, avoiding potentially embarresing yourself. Ive done it a couple of times.
Yeah, I fell off the wagon last night too. I was 5 to 6 months sober until last night. I just couldn’t stand it anymore. The good thing is I slept well, as I haven’t been sleeping good since I switched to Abilify last May. Anyway, just trying to get myself together.
Hey everyone just checking in. I’m not the type to go on a long term bender, and never have been.
I was just low energy for a couple of days.
Thank you for the support, too. It meant a lot.
Don’t quit on quitting! 
These days people like to use terms like ‘problem drinker’ and such.
I don’t think the way to get off of ANY substance is to guilt someone over their problem. I think this is very unhealthy.
To OP:
Addiction is a ■■■■■. I’m currently getting rid of a 7 month old cannabis habit. I gotta throw away all my ■■■■ today…
BUT… just relax/maybe do some breathing exercises. Also, if you are physically fit your mental health will improve and you’ll be less likely to give into ‘the beast.’
It took me 3.5 years to quit ciggys, and 6 months to quit drinking. So please be realistic with the expectations you set for yourself. We all want immediate reward. But if you pace yourself and work things out over time you’ll find things work out ‘smoother’.
Maybe you’d like to get there sooner. But trust me, as long as you never give up you’ll get where you want to go.
Hoping things work out.
GL
Thanks man, there is a book out there called Unbroken Brain(I forgot the authors name) but in it, she refers to “the problem” as a learning disability. She reframes the whole thing.
She also flies in the face of the concept of having to hit rock bottom first. Saying that people are much more likely to recover when they still have people in their lives, among, many other points.
This is what your post made me think of.
I gave up drinking when I wasn’t drinking much at all.
But I had problems with alcohol in the past, so that’s why I decided to give it up at that moment.
It was an easy time to give it up so that’s what I did.
The weird part is deciding to never fo it again For the rest of your life. This is what I’m having problems with with the cannabis
I found the principals in this book useful. It’s kind of the original anti-AA book I believe.
AA is great and works for for many people. But times have changed and there are other recovery books out there.
This is the one I use.
i allways think of it as who is pulling my wagon now. and who is pushing it. …alcoholic are people head for a horrible death. lost friends i know. please find your self free.
I hope you manage to get back on the wagon-my thoughts are with you
Kate1
Everyone slips up once in a while. It’s important to get to where you were earlier. You must have that never late to quit attitude.
All the best, mate.
I’ve slipped before, done stupid things. You aren’t alone.
It’s how you frame it, if you’ve just given up, don’t care anymore, and plan to continue abusing, you’re in a bad place. If you want to sober up again, keep fighting and trying to stay sober, realizing your mistake and trying harder next time, then that’s not so bad, many of us have done it.
Keep up the good fight, get back on the wagon, and try to analyze and learn from the slip. You can do it!
I didn’t mean to put guilt on you. It is just that alcoholics drink prodigiously and do insane things when they drink. AA is full of stories of people getting drunk and doing crazy things. I’m not saying you’re an alcoholic. Only you can answer that. To be honest it doesn’t sound like you are.