Warning: Patrick please don’t read this I know your sick of these stories but I have to try something and this forum and people like you are all I’ve got
Anyway:
Just grabbed a bottle of brandy from my parents cupboard and £20. I binged for about the 8th time in 2 weeks and spent the second day in a row just watching to all day. Part of me wants to scream at my mum for help or tell her how I feel another part wants to just drink to forget every ■■■■■■■ thing and well the other part in trying to ignore. And this isn’t a woe is me cause I know a million have it worse than me and I’m so ■■■■■■■ grateful but I’m just wondering what to do and it’s making me panic And I find writing stuff down helps so yeah…wish me luck and hope I don’t puke
So I hate 0 which is stupid but posting a comment just to get rid of the stupid 0 thanks. Sorry
You can pick yourself up and start again, this isn’t the end. I hope you heal and prosper.
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I know I will I understand that but now right now I don’t know what to do with myself just to pass time more than anything
Kinda why I got the alcohol it helps me sleep and makes family days and break from school go so much quicker
I binged on alcohol Christmas day and spent boxing day depressed, delusional, paranoid and audio hallucinations. It’s time I quit.
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Hope your okay at 16 don’t think I should know how shitty alcohol can be but it also gets me through tonight and j think I need that a little more xxx thoughts are with you feeling any better today?
Just pretty down about it all, i use to be fine with alcohol but earlier in the year it started making me the way i described. It’s just hard to give up because I always enjoyed a drink. I can get away with 3 to 4 pints but when I binge I’m a wreck the next day.
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Where is that wagon going?
Metaphorically speaking down a steep cliff very fast xxx I’m okay just shut storm of manic depression headed my way and drinking as bad as it is helps
Sounds like the wagon’s destination is ‘perpetual depression’ with time standing very, very still, perhaps even going backwards.
Is that where you want to be?
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No no it is a temporary dip from a rapid cycling bipolar xxx just feels ■■■■■■■ years away to the high right now
Yep. Drinking like this is never a good idea, especially at your age. Who am I to judge? I did worse at your age, but I wasn’t an example to be followed at that age.
I think you’re posting here because you know it’s wrong, if you don’t well check the guidelines of the forum, it’s against the rules to post intoxicated.
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Is it shoot sorry if I say anything bad feel free to have ago but I’m not that drunk aright now. I want to smoke more because I also think that would reduce binges rather than getting more calories from alcohol but I know that’s even worse Andy don’t want to get addicted this young xxx And I know it’s wrong but I don’t know what else to do I didn’t mean for this to focus on alcohol I just needed to tell someone I felt bad before I screamed it at my mum or something
Well you’re still in time to stop what you’re doing. No need to feel bad about it, you’ll feel better if you have the strenght to stop it now before you drink the whole bottle.
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It’s not a temporary dip when it becomes a pattern.
Alcohol can cause chemical changes in your brain, especially if your sensitive enough to depression already.
You’ll find it becomes harder and harder to pull out of each depressed episode until you eventually find you can’t get back out.
But don’t take advice from one who has been there, done that, and collected a lifetime supply of frequent flyer miles at the Psych U "hotel"
because no one listens to those with experience, including me.
No one ever ‘plans’ on becoming an alcoholic/depressed/homeless/(insert unwanted behavior here)…it just happens, and usually faster when you think you’re in control.
Hmmmm, why don’t the ‘youth’ ever give advice?
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Awww 
15
I get you and I know this is bad I know it could be a pretty suit road but my problem is that it is drink or probably do something worse it is just to get me through tonight and then tomorrow I will get better I’ll even ring my ducking camhs if it makes you feel better also Patrick please don’t leave I’ll miss you 
Schizophrenics are more prone to abusing alcohol and drugs than most of the population. I hope your drinking doesn’t escalate to being more frequent and to greater amounts. Life with schizophrenia sucks and is impossibly hard and difficult. If you add drinking and drugs it might make it seem easier but it doesn’t really.
I almost lost everything due to drinking and crack addiction. I got clean in 1990 and I’m here to tell you that you don’t have to go down that road of addiction or alcoholism. Maybe I’m jumping the gun and maybe you don’t abuse alcohol too badly. But if you are abusing it badly I would just think about this if I were you. Once you cross that line into alcoholism there’s no turning back. And don’t think that it can’t happen to you because it can. Alcoholism isn’t picky in it’s victims. It claims housewives, business men, lawyers, the rich, the poor, the successful, the unsuccessful and yes, teenagers and people with schizophrenia.
Once you’re an alcoholic drinking is not a choice anymore. It makes it so you HAVE to drink. Once you’re an alcoholic you will lose control of your drinking and you will not be able to control the amount you drink and it will take over your life. It’s a serious condition. You should stop and think about what you’re doing. I know it’s easy for me to say you should and can stop drinking but it is entirely possible. Good luck.
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