Hi. I’m feeling a bit better as its daytime yay. Still finding it hard to accept illness but I talked about the time span before I went into hospital first with someone and they said it wasnt normal but I didnt think there was anything wrong with me. What do you think?
Originally I had this old lady in my community and she came into my home supposedly trying to help me. I thought she was spying on me with the community and getting them to follow me and poison my food. Also my neighbor never opened his curtains and it made me scared.
Then I had a flatmate who always offered to make me food. I didnt trust him and my house was also a pig stye I had old nappies lying around everywhere. This all was happening while I was high functioning at university and looking after a 2 year old child and a 3 bedroom home. I just thought it was stress but could it of been a sign of illness not that I really believe it. I’m trying to investigate and come to terms to what is really going on
I suppose it could have been but it sounds more like psychosis to me. I’m sorry you’re going through this and it’s hard for a lot of us to believe we’re sick. Wanting to make sense of it all is normal I think.
It sounds familiar to me. Once recently I went to mosque and I believed there were gunmen going to harm us and the imam was in the plot too. And that my husband would kill me with a knife after we were arguing. I’d keep a knife in the room with me to defend myself if the need be.
Sounds like the prodromal phase of schizophrenia where things deteriorate before a bout of psychosis. Glad to hear your doing better you will probably return to normal functioning after a month or so as functioning does return with medication, seldom is your functioning exactly the same after a relapse though.