Hearing loads of women and The Devil in my head. How do I make it stop. Or barackh. Excuse my french, I speak Hebrew sometimes when I am mentally ill.
I’m laughing for some reason when I write this.
I don’t know who these women are. Maybe they’re demons.
I stopped all of my meds too. As antipsychotics are poison for me. And just me. They work in psychosis but I’m not psychotic right now.
I take sleeping medication only. Sleep, exercise and food, rest and family is the best long term medication.
I think you should take a power nap, it will go away, it works for me.
Consult a pdoc asap
off meds I laugh at my voices in public they say dumb stuff
By resuming your antipsychotics.
With antipsychotics it makes me more unwell.
Low testosterone is counter productive to a mans mental health.
I almost started talking to myself outloud today. Reality was becoming strange.
I guess I just have to sleep more undisturbed from any voices except my own in my head space.
Sometimes it feels like I’m more than one person which is weird.
I feel like I’m Lucifer incarnate or something.
I think pdoc is wrong.
Only a Doctor of Medicine understands the true nature of science and medication.
Psychiatric doctrines are borderline quackery. Also mods don’t ban me for saying that. I’m let’s say well but unwell.
I want to keep this thread open. Please.
It’s in a recovery setting.
I’m leaving the thread open for now, but it gets closed with the next anti-psychiatry comment as that is not how this community rolls. Just to be clear.
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You know having said that,
The S word Science, it reminds me that Medicine is important.
For me lorazepam and diphenhydramine works for sleep.
Not together of course.
But Nytol seems to work with my Xenobiology 
I guess psychiatry is good in someways. I just hate all of the memories of mindfulness and grounding.
Some stuff works for us and not for others.
Bio psycho social model is excellent though.
I guess I need to broaden my thought spectrum and read up on the history of medicine and psychological phenomenon.
Also when I don’t focus on Science and read things, or lose track of time especially I become unwell.
I’m not hearing any voices in my head right now.
Except my own. Something seems to have manifested through the aether.
Although my neighbours TV said my name and the foxes are screaming outside again.
I always fear my Truman Show delusion will come back.
But I laugh at my past delusions which is positive.
And typing this out helps seal the past in a chamber.
Chamber of Secrets. I appear to have word autism whatever that is so I’m gonna sleep now and rest.
Goodnight to myself and anyone else tryna catch 40 winks.
Also Goodnight to my sons and daughters who I miss and haven’t seen in a long time. I miss them. I don’t understand why my wife keeps my children away from me.
I can understand you feel like to keep on saying things that comes up in mind, hope you recover soon 
I fear the Truman Show dillusion will come back too. It was terrible.
I’m scared right now. I keep hearing voices.
It’s coming from your own head
It’s similiar to being scared off yourself
Or not getting yourself if you understand
Right?
It’s like your not connected to yourself and this external force is bothering you when this external force is coming from you…it’s like not having a complete grip nor comprehension off yourself. 
Dude! You are symptomatic because you are not taking meds. You are not Lucifer, those voices in your head are not real.
You sound very psychotic.
Antipsychotics are not poison.
Get back on meds!
This user has been silenced for a few days for posting increasingly triggered content. Here’s hoping that they are in better shape when they resume posting.
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