Voices are weird

DX'd - Other
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My main voices aren’t gone but they’re quiet as hell and pretty much under control. Only thing is I’m hearing other ■■■■. Like I’ve beaten level 1 and I’m on to level 2. Sounds like real auditory hallucination coming from a cross the room. Something higher up on the ladder is contacting me now. I don’t really know what to make of it so it’s not leading me to any delusions aside from the statement higher up on the ladder. Indicates I entertain the possibility that this disease is an external onslaught and not an internal thing.

The voices have got nothing to be angry about now. One of to is MIA. The male voice totally gone unless I think about him.

I think I’ve developed a tendency to make words out of sounds that totally are words. My stomach grumbles and I hear quite topical things, there are nuerons down there…

Still pretty delusional.

I’ve decided to just not believe in anything and entertain everything without taking to a belief in it. Takes away the weight of the delusions.

Anyways I think I’m nearly done with this sz ride. I’ve got no confusion any more. I don’t really care. It flows through the mind without any lasting effect.

This disease will wear you out.

It’s pretty ■■■■■■ though, some new symptoms, but I’m not afraid. Just more ■■■■■■■ voices or sounds or whatever. The feeling the universe doesn’t like my consciousness.

They are almost gone. They’ve pretty much quit talking ■■■■ and dragging me down. It just takes a while for their essence to die.

I’m well aware that if turn that box fan on it’ll be like traveling back to a few months ago where ■■■■ was just loud. Overpowering my ability to hear weird things. I’m choosing silence over that. Can hear drips from the gutter and the occasional crick of the house and the low rumble of cars outside.

This is proper treatment. Let the voices run themselves out.

Weird ■■■■ happens when I think about people. I’ve gotten pretty good at not doing that. Just slipped though, heard some bs.

I’m thinking its only a couple of weeks until the voices are gone. It’ll be even longer until they are totally gone.

I hate how the professionals won’t tell you that really it is a problem with your belief system and psychological trauma that leads to persistent voices. That if your willing to change things they will go away. Nope they aren’t therapists and most therapists don’t deal with sz.

Takes internal validation, once you have that the voices can only loose their grip. Atheism helps to, at least in my case.

Good luck folks. Recovery is possible. There are a lot of ways to attack this illness. Time is on your side, infortunately relief can’t come quickly enough.

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I’m glad you’re feeling better hunni. Just remember that sz is lifelong so it probably just means that you’re in a quiet period is all. So long as you keep the belief that its all internal you’ll be fine when they come back because they will come back. That’s the nature of the disease. I’m not DX sz but my voices Comecon cycles too. Omnipresent for a few months then quiet for a few months then frequent then quiet again and this can change daily so just bear that in mind. There is no cure just an alieviation of symptoms if you find the right medication. So unless you’ve done that your voices will be back at some point. I take no joy in telling you this, just a friendly warning not to get used to the silence. Enjoy it while it lasts and prepare for when they do return, because they will. So long as you don’t believe in what they say you’ll be fine. Much love, jayne

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Kind of a harsh dose of reality, but after processing it fora few hours. I guess im fine and adjusted to be symptomatic. Find it surprisingly easy to not believe my past delusions right now. Thanks Jayne.

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I noticed for me any sound like the tv, music, running, water whatever sometimes causes the voices

so I try to not have anything on at least once a day.But at one time I didn’t have anything on for days

I just read and sat there zoning out.But then I started feeling like a freak and thats when I realized it

is in controle of my life so since i’ve tried balancing things a bit good luck to you dude.

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Yeah, for me its silence that brings them out. I can faintly hear them when i listen to music. Sometimes they are singing along. Cant always be listening to music though that gets old. Yeah you cant let it control your behavior, good point.

Good luck to you as well.

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As I get more comfortable and adjusted to this sz ■■■■ I’d expect to get better. I’m getting a lot of weird ■■■■ happening when I listen to music. Voices when I’m around people which is unusual. Trouble grounding myself. I still feel stable it’s just annoying as hell.

I want this ■■■■ to go away.

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My good ones have randomly shown up again and have been here since my post the other night about them. Obviously I don’t mind it all, I love having them around, they’re very helpful. No one else has been talking though.

I’ve never had any auditory hallucinations…except the Hypnogognic and sleep paralysis kind…which I learned how to manipulate what kind of sound it was by my emotions, staying calm=tame, soft noise, freaking out=loud, scary noise/cackling, etc.

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Yeah it’s weird id have moments today where I was completely free of symptoms and delusions. Then I’d plummet and eventually come back and now my voices are just doing weird ■■■■.

My entire experience tells me they are telepathic, but for some reason it’s getting easier to ignore it and see them the way I use to see them.

Crazy social problems and anxiety lead to delusion which leads to neurosis which eventually led to hallucinations and again eventually full blown psychosis. For the most part I still live in my own little world.

It’s a tough battle, especially when the voices change their game up.

Pretty confident though I’ll wake up tm and everything wi be the same.

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Plus where I’m at is just kind of noisy. People upstairs, tvs on, my music. And voices.