So my pdoc upped my latuda and I started that last night. Tho for the past couple days I’ve felt mostly more grounded but still very .. delusional(?) . I had a very bad episode yesterday morning where I hallucinated badly and I couldn’t tell . Tho I think it might have been. Or real.
An angel has been talking to me and commenting on my thoughts. I was pondering of i might be delusional and she told me I wasn’t. I went upstairs and covered my face and just rocked back and forwards until my partner found me and talked me down from it.
I’m currently in the process of moving to Illinois, so my stress levels are at a high. I just started a new job. I’m autistic and change is hard for me. I also have FND and PTSD and sza and bipolar so it just is a cascade of symptoms sometimes but they’re lasting a lot less time than before.
I had a bad PTSD episode a few days ago ehere I thought my partner would be better off without me so I grabbed my keys and stood there panicking when he texted me that I was in a flashback. I put my keys back and had to sit down as I was trembling. Then I tried to stand up and my legs were so weak I almost fell over. I’m tired of it. I don’t know how much more I can handle
