Have been weird, so pdoc it is

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I’ve been, for lack of better description, having an episode for a few weeks. It started with my OCD kicking in. I did some weird stuff. I started getting really upset. Most days, I’m even-keeled and upbeat/bubbly in nature (happy, hence the name). I don’t fight with people, don’t hold grudges, etc. But I was crying a lot, had a hard time concentrating on my books, and felt both paranoid and angry. Then I started thinking about hurting myself which, unfortunately, resulted in some suicidal thinking. I’m safe for the moment, but I contacted my pdoc. Her office wants me on a phone call right away (I don’t go face-to-face). So fingers crossed for getting help.

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Good for you for seeking help. You did the right thing.

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Thanks. I don’t know what caused it. My 104 year old Memaw did pass early this month, and I couldn’t go to the funeral, so that didn’t help. Plus, I’ve been alone a whole lot more than I’m used to, and I don’t handle alone well.

I told hubby that I’m not okay, and we planned a few things to try to help. A big one is clearing my side of the room for yoga (looks like hoarders over there), spending some time training Ghost, and making meals easier so I don’t feel guilty asking hubby for help getting food. The #1 thing is actually getting to an ortho for my knees, though. If I could stand and walk a little, many yhings would be easier. I have an appointment next week for that and GI.

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I hope the pdoc can help you. Feel better.

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Crossing my fingers for you @Happy_H

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Hope the pdoc helps you. I am crawling very slowly out of a 2 month episode myself. I know how frustrating it is. I’m sorry you’re going through it.

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I’m so sorry. If I already knew before, I apologize for forgetting. No wonder you don’t feel your best. Hugs!

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Thanks, everyone. Talked to pdoc. Am being put on wellbutrin. I don’t like the stuff but will try it again.

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Good luck, hope it helps!

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I’m glad you’re getting at least something to help. What didn’t you like about Wellbutrin?

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Mania, so no sleep. I find I’m most likely to cause myself harm if I can’t sleep. Or I lose control of my emotions, and get so upset so quickly, that 10 seconds later, I’ve hurt myself. I always feel like I can’t trust me with me. Anything that might contribute to or cultivate that makes me very wary.

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I’m surprised they put you on it again. Mania is terrible to have to deal with

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