Its fourth night of highly agitated manic mood and day mixed. Praying with hubby tonight I felt my mouth grimacing and tongue flapping and after prayers I three slippers on floor and it made a bang and upset hubby and I laughed loud and hysterical and he said it’s not funny and I laughed more. I feel like bleeding and smearing it somewhere. I’m feeling so crap feel aggressive wanna laugh crazy and scream and thro things
I don’t know what to do. I’m fantasising about being single yet I love hubby I’m torn apart and now my mind is following the chaos. My meds aren’t helping this stress. Leave stay leave stay die die flight run
Haven’t felt very supported by you guys except a few. Thanks to those who did write to me. Love this group you’ve seen me thru a lot!
Im so sorry you’re struggling right now. Have you talked to your psychiatrist? It may be time to adjust your meds, maybe try a new one. I know what it feels like to want to hurt yourself, its very distressing, but whenever i do i always end up regretting it. Try remembering what it feels like to follow through with the those negative feelings and actions, and the bad things that happen when you do. I also go through periods of wanting to be single, but i remind myself of where i would be without my extremely supportive and loving husband. I wouldnt be able to take care of myself or my kids. The feeling always passes, its usually during an episode, but it sucks when i go through it. I hate taking it out on my husband. Talk to your husband, talk to your psychiatrist, things can get better.
When you post the same things and then get the same answers, it isn’t a lack of support. It’s that you actively need to seek professional help. We are not professionals here and can only do so much.
You need hospitalization and now. Please seek help.