So I do this often I refer to it as twisting my delusion. So say I’m feeling paranoid and I think that the ‘bad doctors’ have poisoned my food again. Well usually I can twist it around and convince myself that the ‘good doctors’ have put an antidote in my food that will counteract the poison because the ‘good doctors’ want to keep me safe. I can usually do this with a little bit of help from someone else to say it back to me and I will often times repeat the new version of the delusion.
I don’t know how easy it would be for others to do, but I think that it might be worth a try because it helps me immensely when I can’t simply push the delusion away. If you are having troubles with trying to find a way to twist your delusion around so that you can function than you might be able to message me and explain your delusion and I might be able to give you ideas that you can convince yourself to believe.
Yeah that’s nice. Sometimes you have to play by the rules of your world. I’ve definitely done the same. Like I’d have a fear of ghosts and demons but when I believed I was a werewolf I’d say I was able to fight them because I had magic powers and that demons were forced to obey werewolves because werewolves had beaten them in a war a very long time ago.
Of course it’s preferable to use logic to fight it but this is an alternative.
When I had the delusion of my food being poisoned I forced myself to eat it anyway. It is kind of like I refuse to live in fear and would rather die. Of course many times the hallucinations and delusions have made me feel fear so I don’t think I’m brave for all the times I’ve been cowardly.
Maybe it’s not a good thing but I use this one more than logic. I don’t know why but it’s just hard to believe in logic sometimes yet it’s easier to twist the delusion. I wonder why this is. Do you know why?
Because in one you’re completely rejecting the reality that your brain firmly believes in. The other one you’re simply adding to it/manipulating it, so it’s easier. It’s simpler to adjust or add to beliefs than it is to throw them away altogether.
I’d say you are pretty brave for being able to force yourself to eat it anyways. I can’t do that. I wish I could but I usually have to twist it to get it so I can eat. Honestly the fact that you live each day knowing you might have to battle hallucinations, knowing you might have to battle delusions and still living is pretty brave, so from my point of view yeah you might be cowardly at times but you are brave every day of your life just by living.
Hmmm a coping mechanism. I never thought of it that way. I just kind of. I don’t know actually I just used it. For me I can do it with or without medication.
When I’m trying to get to sleep at night, a lot of times I think the front door to the house has magically opened all by itself, so I have to go down and check the front door to make sure it is closed. This can happen multiple times.
What I try to do is imagine that the door has closed all on its own and locked itself on its own. That way I won’t have to go downstairs check the door. So I guess that is kind of like twisting my delusion.
One time I would only eat at fast foods I would randomly rush into before they could get to my food, I did this for months, at home I threw out the fridge
