good question, so far at age 48 nobody and nothing has been able to have an affect on my delusions.
you can’t prove them wrong cause i wrote them in between the knowledge, all my delusions are possible.
No such thing as gravity; no such thing as property rights or human dignity other than the deranged delusions in a bunch of psychopaths. Not located inside my human body, but rather centered in unreality, outside of time, from where I breathe life into my “time garden”, my little garden in time called onderdonk. That the demon world is located in fungus and insects, that their hive mind is the demon world and they have contacted me and I have been living in communion with them for decades. That the bugs crawling all over me are “real” contrary to every pdoc and psych hospital in america- cause I gotta tell ya, I sleep on a metal slab and I eat only antiparasitic raw vegetables and anti-parasitic teas, and i’m fine - no itching; only itch if i eat the human diet, you nuts are just blind to the damage you are doing to yourselves with your so-called “food”, oh yeah, here’s a recent one, that human beings are stupid for splitting themselves into male and female and then getting together to create zygospores, when it’s obvious from the book of eden that adam is absurd to accept an apple from eve, who needs her, kick her outta the garden and parthenogenerate a new mate with another rib, we made lillith and kicked her out for not submitting, now eve is just as bad, won’t submit, I say slaughter any one who plays as if they are one sex or the other, then when there’s almost nothing left, parthenogenerate new ones from some other ribs.And while we are talking about foolish splitting, how about the zoroastrians, and their idea about splitting the mind and behavior of man into two sides, called “good” and “evil”, and then actually try to evict half of themselves. And this took off, you got a bunch of monotheistic religions carrying on that old timey nonsense in the modern age, all science and reason aside, I live in the country where almost everybody believes in angels and demons and gods, according to surveys, most superstious population on the planet; and i sure do rub their foolish noses in it, bad dog!
oh yeah, the delusion that launched a thousand delusions - i created this at about twelve years old, and my parents were defeated, and declared that therefor i was “insane” - they were trying to manipulate me with a material posession. I continued to defy them. they were stumped. “Don’t you want it?”
I said of course I want it, that’s why you are using it to manipulate me, thing is, I’m not tied to what i want, I am free to want what i want myself to want, and I simply don’t want myself to want that, cause you are gonna use it against me.
That escalated to me taking all my belongings, gathered them up in a bedspread, took it downstairs, laid it at the feet of these parents, and said, there, take it all, now what are you gonna do?
so far no hospital, no doctor, no wife or friend, no medication, no life experience, no amount of pondering, will dispel any of these long held delusions.
i call it invincible irrationality, my ex wife is suing for divorce o the grounds of that but she terms it “incurable insanity”
and if you think you have some personal power, well, go for it.
§onderdonk