Hey everyone, so I’ve got the feeling that ending things is ideal. No intentions of doing so, just thoughts of it.
I’m not particularly sad or upset with anything. Just stressed. Stressed partly because of my own expectations in terms of school and my employment progress atm. But also annoyed, annoyed there’s no one I can bounce off with for a good rapport to build my strength up to overcome the feeling of wanting to die.
I call it suicidal feeling because it’s the feeling (slight tingy pain in the chest coupled with thoughts of “want to end, want to end, want to end” repeating). So anyway, that’s how I feel. In terms of what i’m thinking - it’s not necessarily anything material as far as committing anything dangerous is concerned.
I called the out of hours helpline, but after a twenty minute wait - nobody was picking up and I was still the 2nd person in the queue. I don’t think Escitalopram is working for me, even if we raised the dose, I feel like the dose I’m on has weakened; so if we raise the dose - the same will only happen again.
I might call the Samaritans but they won’t be able to help with the medication query I have, I was hoping if I got through to the NHS, they’d be able to log into the system - escitalopram isn’t working.
It’s a periodic thing it seems, sometimes sleep helps but sometimes; it grows and comes back and hits me harder. That’s what’s happened the last two days, i’ve slept on it. And then it’s hitting harder today. Is what it is
I wonder what my dr could try though. I’ve been on fluoxetine and this and trazodone. All had issues of some kind. I suppose mirtazapine is the only option left available at my clinic.
Sucks man. I’ve been there in the past. Sometimes you just need to give it a couple days and keep doing what you can. A couple good nights of sleep usualy helps me get back to normal.
The recommended starting dosage of Lexapro for major depressive disorder is 10 mg once daily. Your doctor may consider increasing your dosage to 20 mg per day. But this dosage hasn’t been shown to work better in studies.
Kind of scared about them, especially the sexual side effects. Paxil seems to be effective but I worry the sexual side effects would make it something I’d stop using
Edit @Speedy does it make you sleep a lot? Paxil I mean
That’s useful info, fluoxetine helped me a lot but I’d crash every few days. Escitalopram helps me sleep but doesn’t address the “suicidal feeling” , thank you man. I’ll make a note of paxil
Is what it is