I'm really having a hard time, you guys

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I took my meds early today because I was “freaking out” (doctor always asks me what that means, but I know you guys know). Minutes later though I felt really strange and weak and collapsed on the floor. I felt better and got up within 5 minutes but my mood is still awful. Very dark and hopeless. I feel like it’s unbearable to go on. It’s not that I don’t want to, it just feels unbearable, like an incredible grief.

Since I do not have a plan for suicide, there’s nothing they’re going to do for me, not that there is anything they could do anyway.

I just need to get back my hope.

I’ll float til I sink, after all.

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I’d get myself checked out physically if I were you. This could be a physical thing (low blood pressure?) Please tell your doctor that this happened.

Did anything change recently med wise?

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I would go to the hospital.

It sounds very dramatic,

But you collapsed.

Even if it is psychological, its serious.

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Yeah I would definitely get those physical symptoms checked out as soon as possible.

I empathize with ya on those feelings of grief.

I wish there was more I could do to help.

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Is this something that you expect to go away? If not, a mood stabilizer might help. Try balancing your chemicals with exercise, conversation, sleep, or being active. I find for me going outside and looking at the scenery and being in the sun helps. Going out to do something fun to forget the mental anguish a little.

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If you passed out there is something wrong.
Get checked out by a physician.
I passed out in the psych hospital - flat out lost consciousness.
They took me to the local ER.

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Hey TS.

You say you want to get your hope back which means its still there for you to get.

Don’t worry even if things get heavy
We’ll all float on

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I didn’t actually pass out, I just couldn’t hold myself up anymore.

I don’t think I’m likely to die or anything. Although the idea doesn’t bother me.

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me too I have no hope this night twinklestars… Its really like I gave up. Me, I even dont feel my meds. do you feel yours? The difference for me is that I still want to live. The idea to die was always frightening for me.But I have suicidal ideation though… am I from those for whom meds dont work? ■■■■… Take care twinkle, you probably were weak for a moment, it happens.
hugs

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“the idea does not bother me”

That is going to be a problem.

Is anyone there with you? Do you know what are the prevention line phone numbers?

Is it possible you taking the medicine early accidently put too much in your system?

If no one is there with you then call a friend over for the night. Explain what is going on. Tell the friend you just need someone there.

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Hello @twinklestars .
Some forum members face difficult struggles.
Don’t get discouraged.
The key is resilience.
There are difficult moments, but the key is to put them to rest as quickly as possible and move on.
If you feel you have trouble physically perhaps exercise will help you.
I wish you all the best,
Erez.

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I’m all too familiar with this feeling. Best of luck to you. Stay alive, friend.

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Twinkle twinkle little star
How i wonder what u r
Up above the world so high
Like an sz in the skyyyyyyy

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Hang in there, we can do it

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your last post was 2 hrs ago. just being the wrrywart that i am and checking in on you.

hope you dont mind?

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I’m still here I just don’t feel very “verbal”.

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