The last paragraph is the most important one if you don’t want to read all of this.
So I was with my daughter out and about. A total stranger who did not know my name or anything else about me told me things about myself in such accurate detail it was insane.
She also knew, in detail, about my best friend who lived a hard life, ended up homeless in high school, then ended up with a mean sugar daddy to survive, then got attacked and ended up with hiv. The lady was able to tell me all of this! She even described how we spent our time together!
Anyway, this friend of mine decided to leave all her friends behind after her diagnosis, including me. She didn’t have the money for hiv meds (this was very long ago and it was very difficult to get insurance and to afford the drugs) so she knew she was going to die of aids.
This lady told me she committed suicide before dying of aids and that she is profoundly sad and is with me. The lady said she is grateful to me for my kindness and friendship.
Anyway, this whole thing was nuts! I can’t believe how many accurate details this lady had about my life and my friend’s life. I’m in shock.
I’m not looking for people to tell me to pray or that this woman is evil or something. I’m reeling with shock and need help coping with rehashing disturbing details about my best friend.
I miss her and it hurts me very deeply that she felt she had to go away and be alone after her diagnosis. I offered to take care of her. I told her if money was an issue I’d get 3 jobs and pay a nurse to take care of her when she got too sick. This is all deeply painful to process all over again.
I’m sorry about your friend. It was a sad time for many people before drugs for people with HIV became more common and affordable.
I had my own AIDS scare in 1986 before drugs were available when I shared needles with two heroin addicts. One was a prostitute and the other was her junkie boyfriend who had just gotten out of prison. They had every risk factor in the book but I got lucky and didn’t get HIV from them.
Your friend probably thought she would be a burden to you if you tried to help her and probably didn’t want to do that to you because she probably liked you a lot.
Yeah. I’m sure she felt that way. And that’s sad because she was so dear to me. We actually went to elementary school together until I moved away and then we ended up in the same class at the same college. We had a lot of fun together even though each of us had really tough lives.
When I was taking “Honors” psychology during my B.S. in CS, the professor explained to the class that he had selected our university to teach at because it had a “humanistic” psychology department. He further explained that he was studying children with paranormal abilities.
Some people prey on other people, unfortunately. They know how to get them where it hurts and how to get just the right info out too. I’m sorry that happened to you and that you are having to process this painful experience again.
But I truly believe your friend holds so much love for you and is not suffering! You told her you’d take care of her no matter what the cost and no matter how sick she got. How amazing! She knows that you would have done anything for her. I know I’d never forget something like that, no matter how much time passed or wherever I went. That kind of love sticks forever.
Thanks @jukebox . I appreciate that. I’m sorry you lost your friend that way. It ends the immediate pain for the sufferer but creates more pain for everyone around the person who did it. But the person suffering so badly really can’t help it. They are lost in hopelessness.
This is either someone who is highly skilled at cold reads and who prompted you into revealing more without realizing it or you’re becoming unstable and things are leaking into your perceived reality that aren’t in fact real. The latter is much more likely around here. Suggest a trip to the doctor soonest because of this.
