I actually know what that is like. My best friend committed suicide 8 years ago. It was hard first 2 years but with time and self care it kinda got better. I still have a hard time in December because I think of the last days I had with him and try to analyze everything to see if there was anything I could have done to save him. Reality is I couldn’t have saved him, no one new how he truly felt. I can only live on his memory and work hard to help myself and others to honor him.
Sorry to hear you experienced that distress. I’m glad it kinda got better. Especially as it was a best friend.
A part of me wants to block them out of my memory simply cos wen I think of them now I get disturbed by images in my mind and sadness.
No but I nearly died from suicide, liver intoxication from intentional Tylenol overdose. Another suicide attempt I drove half a minute with eyes close, I wanted to go faster and crash. Another time I had a deadly accident my car flipped in the air. I went over 200kmh on ice highway, I wanted to die. Police said I am the luckiest one they’ve known, almost all ppl die from such an accident 200kmh on ice covered by snow.
I was psychotic in Tenerife and tried many times 2 kill myself in 2000, i was gonna jump off a 20 story apartments only 4 my friend blocked me…l could write a book on it
I knew 5 people who committed suicide. One was a friend I guess. I knew him for years. We got put in the same semi-independent living houses. I used to piss him off, he had a bad temper. We lost touch and I moved away and I heard ten years later he had killed himself. It was a shock and sad. And he had my diagnosis too. It affected me for awhile, I thought about it a lot.
I worked with a guy who was also schizophrenic. He was cool, I dated his ex-girlfriend (way out of my league). He killed himself when he was only about 23. I won’t make a list, it doesn’t seem like it would be appropriate.
I heard Jesus when I swallowed a whole Tylenol bottle, idk if it was a hallucination, my inner voice or an angel but probably my inner voice telling me to not kill myself.
I was psychotic in 2010 and i heard a voice that said …’‘I am the lord your God there are no false Gods before me’’ I looked it up on google its a verse in the bible, after that I am healed on meds still though
and the next paragraph in the bible was, ‘‘although you don’t know me I will strenghten you’’
The Reason it Took So Long, I Was Analyzing Life And Death For So Long Was Me Searching For a Comforting Album For My Family to Listen to, During My Wake.
I Also Couldn’t Decide on How I Was Going to Perform The Duty.
Long Story Short, Suicide is a Subject Only True Professionals Can Possibly Prevent From Happening. (So You Can’t Blame Yourself), And The Victim Has to Reach Out For Help. Even Jus One Small Step Can Change The Outcome From Horrific/Terrifying to BEAUTIFULLY OPTIMISTIC.
Jus Live On in Fond Memory to Overshadow The Pain.
It’s The Best You Can Do. Because!,
If You Try The Best You Can, The Best You Can is Good Enough!.