Went to my friends, and it wasn’t what I expected. We just live entirely different lives now. I used to work with her, and she saw me when I was living really well, like she is still. I realize now no one will understand what we go through.
I’m rethinking my treatment options. She was going to watch my dogs if I had to go into the hospital, now she won’t, because they’re a little aggressive and untrusting of people. I don’t hold it against her, but I don’t see how I can risk having to be hospitalized without a person I trust to watch them.
I had a friend in the 1960’s and 70’s who I just found on the computer. Who would have guessed from the trajectories we were on that he would wind up as he has! Not sure if I want to contact him!
None of my friends from a certain point will talk to me. Maybe I’m too sensitive but I tried hitting up my best friend from hs. He didn’t add me he just viewed my profile so I never went on that site again. Like cmon u disrespect me u won’t just add me out of cmon courtesy I’m not gonna hurt anyone. People don’t understand mental illness. We go separate ways. I also miss a lot of friends who died. Why’s it seem like the ones u remember being chillest die at the most inopportune times for the most part. Don’t get me wrong others left bad impressions before they left too soon. One friend we made up a year before he died. He did horrible things but the look in his eyes. He loved me and I forgave me he just was going through some ■■■■ himself and didn’t understand at first. O well. Friends. Yeah.