diagnosed almost 2 years ago now, and life has really changed. after the psychosis i will never be the same. about a year before i was diagnosed, i started smoking pot. still smoking, have become an addict. smoking up all day, from the time i wake up to when i go to sleep.
i receive disability, and with this i afford to live on my own. i’m turning 22 this year.
i have dreams, aspirations, to be a great model/actor. the only positive is that i am quite handsome and maybe have the ability to act, because of course, i’m crazy… but i can easily play it off and no one would be able to tell that i have this problem. only my closer friends know.
but sometimes life seems to pathetic, so boring, so pointless…
we live, and we die. we do a bunch of stuff in between.
what is your guys’ opinion on life, and the hand you were dealt. how do you deal with this “mediocrity” so to speak. it feels less than that for me.