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Thought-Broadcasting/Intrusive Thoughts/xyzwtf or a warped and hopeless reality?

"I had a stimulant-induced psychotic break about 3 yrs ago that lasted about a week; was hospitalized and treated w/ invega and this issue promptly ceased (not without horrendously unpleasant side-effects…). I discontinued treatment and was no longer struggling with psychosis symptoms until about 6 mnths ago when I began to experience “auditory hallucinations” that were involved w/ law enforcement ( likely related to my history of stim abuse; whether guilt-driven or actual external involvement). Essentially; every day for the last 6 months I have been hearing about some increasingly involved “investigation” that has reached the point where it feels like my thoughts are being intercepted and used as ammunition for mental warfare. I hear also what I call “prompts”, which are key phrases designed to provoke a reactive thought that is in line with the information that they seem to want. I have no mental or physical privacy and I feel under a microscope 24/7. This pressure has paved way to an influx of disturbing and troubling intrusive thoughts, which perpetuates this hopeless cycle and I feel so lost and hopeless. It has gotten to a point where I’m fearing for consequences to mere thoughts that I want nothing to do with in the first place (ex: fearing for life in prison because of an intrusive thought of a grotesque, uncharacteristic nature.) Nobody around me can convince me by any rationale or logic that I am not being investigated, because for every conclusion proposed there is a more compelling flip-side argument, observation or threat rendering any sense of security washed over by torturous fear. Is this frickshow even remotely feasible?? It has been generally determined that thought transfer is not possible without tangible electro-current technology connected to the individual, but even this documentation cannot qualm the certainty that I am truly experiencing this nightmarish storyline. Please ; if anyone can help me figure this out, I would be most grateful. It has made my life a perpetual catastrophe and I feel so alone. "

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If it’s affecting function you need to see a shrink. Early intervention with appropriate meds leads to better outcomes and if you’ve stopped the street drugs then there’s issues you need to resolve.

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First of all, good job realizing that there is a problem going on and reaching out, I know it’s difficult. I would recommend seeking professional psychiatric help, and yes the quickest way to do that is to go to the ER. Hospitals can get appointments faster for you than you yourself.

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Welcome to the forum! The others have pointed out your best course of action already so I won’t reiterate it. I hope you follow it. You definitely sound like you are suffering from delusions as well as your auditory hallucinations.

Good luck!
:+1:

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… Nevermind.

My radar is off this morning.

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Thought broadcasting sucks indeed. I also get intrusive thoughts as well. Its nothing real just a cruel trick by schizophrenia. Be prepared for a lot of tricks to make you believe its real

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I have a psychiatrist that I see regularly and I am prescribed Risperidone 2mg but it has not been very effective. I’ve tried other antipsychotics but either the side effects are too severe to handle or they have been ineffective, unfortunately. Thank you for taking the time to read and provide a thoughtful response.

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@NorthernSights Welcome to The Forum. Yes, I had a very similar experience where I thought the police we’re working together with the government, to both read and insert thoughts into my mind via satellite.

Very similar experience to you, where they would try to lead my thought processes into something that had nothing to do with me. And when a thought crossed my mind, they would gasp as if it were real. If that makes any sense

I have improved a lot, and now I understand the nature of the illness. The voices are still there, but I don’t let it trouble me anymore. It takes time and effort, but you can most definitely improve

I hope this gives you some glimmer of hope

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I read some of this.

What this site refuses to accept
Is mind control
Nuero-action
By an outside force.
Welcome to the site.

Who will rationalise mind control for me? I mean reasons it dosent exist

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Do you mean voices external to yourself, or your internal experience? I can see that the voices affect me and influence me, but I don’t see that as mind control

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No i mean where the voices come from. Sone people believe people got their hands on somekind of tech to control peoples minds.

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My experience was very similar to that, but that was seven years ago. I’ve come out of it completely now

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Did you come up with anygood reasons that it dosent exist??

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It seems far more likely, to be a symptom of schizophrenia then an actual reality.

Why would they pick me or you of all people?

Maybe it’s just how much you are attached to the idea? I don’t know

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The voices are apparent in the outside world around me as well as in my head. Music with headphones helps a bit but I can still hear them berating and persistently badgering me. Thank you for taking the time to read and respond.

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Same for me. If anything, they kick it up a notch to try to distract me. The voices seem farther away now though, now that I’m not engaging them as much

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Sometimes I hear them claim that I am some kind of “threat to society” so this is what makes it feasible in a world where they actually perceive me as a problem for some absurd reason; this is why I get pulled into believing that I am a target. I don’t act in any manner that denotes anything unusual from the average human being, but I fear that somehow my intrusive thoughts are giving them leverage.

Mine seem to insinuate this all the time. That I am a murderer, or a danger to others in some way. But I understand now, it’s all just gibberish. That seems to be the game, to throw me off balance. Believe me, they’re just blowing smoke

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Mine tell me the same

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