Does anyone else start believing they’ve been faking it this whole time? How do I know if this is true? I told my therapist this once and she said it may be part of thought disorder. I dont understand that. It feels real to me but at the same time I dont know. I’m confused.
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I thought i was faking for awhile, then i think about all the times i went weird. You know the stories, running to churches because demons are following you, thinking its a simulation, thinking the psychiatrist wants to put you in asylum to experiment on you. Just schizo stuff that i never think about until someone brings it up or i can add the story someplace.
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if you cant think properly then you probably have MI 
I pray you find clarity and wisdom x
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The act of faking, by definition, must be intentional. If you have to ask whether or not you’re faking, then you literally can’t be faking. Please keep taking your meds.
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I stopped my meds because I want to know if I’m faking it
Im Definatly not faking it - tho it used to cross my mind.
I only have to read some of the diaries i keep. Some of the delusions i keep records of , frankly amazes me what comes out my head.
So im def. of my rocker. Thank you 
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It’s a common thought for those with thought disorder.
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One of my episodes was traumatic for other people as well as myself. There is no way I could ever fake what happened during my psychosis episodes.
Sometimes I wonder if I’m faking negative symptoms or if I’m just lazy, but when I have days where it lessens I absolutely can tell that the negative symptoms are real
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Can you expand what that means? I know what thought disorder is but I don’t see how it relates
Why would anyone want to fake this ■■■■? It sucks.
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Now that I am on a med (Zyprexa) that works very well for me, I sometimes feel that I am cured for good. I know that I only feel so good because of the Zyprexa working - and that there is no cure for sza - but I still get tempted to see what I’m like now without it. Maybe I’m cured now.
Don’t worry, I won’t stop taking it, I have too much experience with psychosis. It’s just the occasional tempting thought.
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I have this problem. I think ive made it up. sux
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Yes, I gathered that. It’s not worth it, dude. What if you aren’t faking? You could end up in the hospital, or worse. And so what if you are somehow accidentally faking? The meds help you, don’t they? That’s all that matters.
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I take my negative symptoms as being lazy. If I get used to not doing things then I just don’t want to do them. I hate being lazy!
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I’ve been convinced for years that I’m faking it and I had strong thoughts that my care team thought I was a malingerer too. I applied to read my NHS folders, They arrange the folders in years (I had 11 folders in total) I only managed to read one folder and skim some of the rest and it was not mentioned anywhere that they thought I was malingering. I was told my my support manager I must be a Oscar winning actor to get through 12 sectioning (involuntary hospitalisations) without it being picked up I was faking.
Well, you should see it this way,
have you acomplished something in life? are you able to acomplish stuff in life? do you have difficulties doing some things?
There are some things that are basics for a person to live a good life in this society, family, friends, love, money, etc, are you able to get those?
It’s not so much about you having a mental disease but the trouble it causes in you achieving things in life, if you have all kinds of mental disorders but still manage to have a succesful and happy life then it doesn’t even matter.
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Not really faking it. But, I sure wish I applied myself better to this point. I should have done more with life than I’ve done :(. Nobody ever told me I was faking anything though. I gather I don’t present too well.
I was accused by one psychiatrist for faking it until I had a complete psychotic break, luckily, while in the hospital. The psychiatrist later apologized. But no, I know I’m not faking it. Only 1% of cases of psychosis are faked and it’s usually from criminals trying to get a lighter sentence. Which never works. Thought disorder occurs in most cases of schizophrenia too which is similar to dementia related confusion. And can include disorganized speech like word salad. I have very disorganized speech when I’ve been off medicine for several months.
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Yup, I feel like a fake, voices tell me I’m faking it. Sometimes I have to reality check with people that I’m really sick, and my delusions aren’t true, it can help in an odd way, to hear it isn’t real
You’re thinking about the “the normality line”. We all think, at some point, we’re tottally normal.
We are. However, we need meds.