Something I hate to do but find myself doing from time to time. Thinking about the past. Specifically the day I went to the hospital and all the events that led up to it. It’s an awful memory. I just blogged about it as a therapeutic way to get it out of my mind. Didn’t really work. I need a distraction to get me to think about something else.
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Be in the present I had to learn that too. What did ya do today?
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Oh jeeze. Big day. Biiiiiig day…hehe. I went to Turkey hill (gas station) for Red Bull and pizza. Laid on the porch swing outside in the sun. Went back to Turkey hill for chewing tobacco and a soda. Then some guy just came over and bought a TV I was selling on Facebook. I had to whip out my awful Spanish speaking skills because he didn’t speak any english
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Oh gosh well you had a bigger day than me lol, I met the UPS man at the door and back on the couch I went for remainder of the day.
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That sounds like my past two days. I’ve spent a majority of time in my bed. Sometimes all you can do is be comfortable.
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I know how you feel i ended up hospitalized on my birthday i was psychotic and suicidal and the police had to come get me worst birthday ever
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man, I learned to leave my past, especially memories having to do with my disease, all alone…I tend to cherry pick my memories…those that make me happy…just think on good things…try to anyways…sorry Ed, you are struggling.
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Today is much better. I’m not dwelling on the past. Only happens some days. Mostly I think about parties I was at when I was younger or going out playing pool with my friends. I do miss having friends though
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I’m glad today you’re not dwelling on the past. That’s not easy to stop yourself from doing. But if you can focus on the here and now, it’s good for your mental health.
I’m so sorry you don’t have friends. That must hurt deeply
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I like the past when it isn’t about my parents. Today I had a sweet dream about my childhood friend who I’m still in touch with. It made me feel so peaceful.
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I reach out to people I used to hang out with. But I moved two years ago and haven’t met anyone new. I don’t go out so I won’t meet anyone. I used to have a bunch of musician friends who would do open mics and kareoke. But I haven’t done one in a while. We live in the middle of nowhere so meeting new people or getting out to play music is tough
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It does kinda hurt having no friends. I’m kind of a loner though. But I’ve always had at least 2-3 good friends. Ever since I moved I’ve been alone. I thought I’d see family more but I only see them a couple times a year. Every one is busy moving on getting married and having kids and I’m stuck alone with my parents. I must say I am thankful to have a place to live. Some aren’t so lucky
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I love good dreams
Could you take care of yourself enough so that you could live on your own? Then you could choose where.
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Very hard for me to not ruminate on the past. I tend to carry negative thoughts with me.
One thing that helps me sometimes is to think of my thoughts like clouds. This is something my therapist taught me in DBT. A thought comes in, drifts, and goes away like a cloud.
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I could. But I can’t work. My social security is not enough to be able to afford a place around here.
Is there no subsidized housing?
That’s tough. I’m glad you at least have your parents. Do you ever contact your siblings without it being about where you’ll live etc? It might be a good way to have siblings who are also friends
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I used to think about the past a lot when my grandmother was alive.
Since she died I think of the present and future more and setting myself up for a job.
Or maybe cause i’m 41 and the past is the past and Im living on my last act on earth. when i was late teens 20s early 30s I would think of my childhood. a lot but when I turned 35 I stayed in the present more maybe cause I didn’t want to miss anything else and the past of my childhood was more than 20 years ago it’s been a long time. I think of setting myself up for a job making a dent in the universe and having sex with african woman or brazillian.
So close to being nice then you said this SMH honestly you should be ashamed and should try and think of women as people and not just something you have sex with. I REALLY hope you NEVER EVER have sex with a woman again and that someone puts you in your place so bad it actually sticking. I’m not sure about anyone else but I find your replies and threads to be extremely repulsive, sexist, and just awful to women
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