Bear with me, i know i sound bonkers, but ive been scared to even go out the flat since yesterday afternoon, cos last time i went out - everyone was smiling at me - and i thought they could see my angel wings (!!?)
Voices have been getting significantly louder when im outside as well - ive tried the headphone trick, but then im paranoid someone is slagging me off behind my back, and i wont be able to hear them.
Hopefully my cpn will pop over this morning - even the physical company will probably do me good.
Ive started taking the 25mg x 2 of quetiapine during the day again to try and combat it - but im crapping myself when i venture near the main front door.
I hoping its just a wobble - but im sitting here with no milk, like a prat cos i cant get any lol.
Yeah, I go in and out of psychosis and find myself not being able to do basic things just like you’re going through right now.
It’s gets better, try to tell yourself that things are unlikely or not possible and that when your brain feels fear it accidentally connects everything you perceive into a knot with the fear and then you are paranoid … it might help a little bit?
Then decipher what is plausible and what is coincidence.
It is very unlikely anybody is thinking of you, let alone wanting to speak badly of you !
Yeah but it’s not your fault, you are not in control of the way your nervous system responds and then treats the brain, you do have a condition which makes it very difficult to be able to remember and fight this!
You will be better though, because what you have written shows and is great evidence that you have A LOT of insight !