No really I think I might just be gay. I mean girls are okay but I prefer less masculine men, basically really gay men. I think girls can look pretty but arent that much fun to have sex with and I have hard times feeling comfortable getting close to them, I never have really been that close to girl.
I like sex with less masculine, more obviously gay guys and also feel a lot closer to them emotionally and psychologically than I do to women. I sort of don’t trust/dislike women in general but do find some of them sexually attractive. I just dont really find them as emotionally attractive as men. My shrink has some ideas why, partially because my personality is uber masculine and is too masculine and logical for most females.
I’m only going to say this because you are very high functioning and I think you can take it (I’m new, but I’ve read some of your posts before). Also, it may help you if you quit flip flopping…
You are gay. Be out and proud and if anyone can’t accept it, F* 'em.
The more you talked about enjoying the company of guys… and the more you talked about how much you don’t trust, or even like girls that much … I had a feeling this is where the path would lead you.
I used to think I was bi, but I just didn’t like sleeping with women, even though I think most women are cute. So I guess I went the opposite way on the Kinsey scale from you. Embrace your sexuality, if you want to be exclusive to men, rock on with it!
Yes Mortimer, I had a hunch that you were ‘purely’ Gay - and you know what - embrace it
You seem to know yourself quite well - and you seem to be comfortable with your sexuality - I commend the fact that you are so direct and honest - heck, you manage to stay so fit and excel in your schoolwork - I for one admire your determination and tenacity
Mortimer, I don’t know myself but from what I’ve been told this can be a very confusing thing to accept and I commend you for this. I would say consider yourself lucky that you have come to this conclusion at a rather young age. There are many people who found themselves with a wife and kids before being able to accept the fact that they were gay. I knew one man in my teens who’s daughter was an acquaintance of mine who didn’t come out until he had already married a woman and raised a family. Luckily I believe his family was very accepting of his circumstance. There was also a bishop in my parents church who had married a woman only to come to the conclusion that he was gay and that this was how he had to live his life in order to be happy. He went on to marry a man and become a bishop in the Episcopalian church…
I would say this is a very good thing to come to the conclusion of at your age. I know it can be confusing when you have some sexual attraction to both sexes, not personally, but from what I’ve been told and seen in life. Good for you Mortimer, good for you my man.
