The Shadows keep saying things. They tell me that my friend Aj will have a normal and happy life if I leave. He says that he hears voices too but he thinks that it’s not just voices but rather different personalities. I think I’m going to tell him about this website he’s a year older than me. Anyways they keep assuring me that everything will be okay if I run away, that then all my friends will be happy and they will be okay. They don’t demand I run away like they usually do though. They say that it’s best if I do and they say it soothingly and like they know that it will be. They don’t make themselves large and scary when they talk like this either instead they make themselves feel smaller, they don’t hover above me they go on the ground and walk next to me. I’m trying not to listen to them but they sound so sure. They sound so confident when they say that if I leave than everything will be okay.
They are just changing their tactics because you have been so good at ignoring them so far. This is a very common progression. Their goal is to hurt you, and they will try anything to do so. They’re still wrong. Your friends will be heartbroken and never recover fully.
Okay. I’ll try to continue to ignore them.
I know, it’s easier said than done. Did the focus teacher get a hold of your parents?
I don’t know. I’m kind of scared to go home because my mom is probably going to be mad and say something like “Why did the school call me.” I think she would be mad too because I talked to the Focus teacher about her and my dad not bringing me into the hospital but I already figured out that I would say something like “I just told them what happened this weekend because the Focus teacher wanted me to check in with her today so I did and she asked what went on this weekend so I told her.” I feel like that would be a good thing to say.
That would be a good way to approach the subject. Remember, you didn’t do anything wrong. You just told the truth. Nobody can really get mad at you for telling the truth.
Yeah and I didn’t tell her to call my parents. She came up with that and did that on her own. I just went back to class and I don’t really know what she did afterwards. And if she asks if I gave the Focus teacher permission to call my parents then I’ll say that yes I did because I did and I don’t want to lie. I am not responsible for what the Focus teacher did because those are her actions and not mine. I didn’t make her do anything.