The visit and being pathologically self conscious

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I think half ,or more, of the problem is that I am very self conscious. Perhaps/probably pathologically so. Every scenario is potentially one for embarrassment/doing something wrong and inviting disapproval.
Ideally I want to have a “If you really like me you’ll take me as I am,warts and all” attitude but I don’t have the courage/nerve.

My sister is aware of my issues to some degree as I have mentioned Aspergic traits,NVLD, Dyspraxia etc. Re the latter she has even said she always thought I was probably dyspraxic more than anything else.

It is hard to separate the paranoia from the SA. I am very much primed to believe my social ineptness/freakishness is all too apparent, and that people respond accordingly to me because of it.

My sister has said she is looking forward to seeing me. Perhaps she knows what I am like and my difficulties and still likes/loves me.

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I’m sure your sister would be the last person in the world for seeing any faults you see in yourself.

Have a Merry Christmas :christmas_tree:

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I’ve tried pinning down all of my mental differences before, but gave up. My family is very unconcerned about my mental health. They don’t really think much of me.