The obsessive desire for personal perfection can be damaging

[Loke]

Yeah. I studied a lot!!! Mucho.

[insidemind]

I think college is different but I got schizophrenia at the time. I dropped out. It was hard. Life went downhill fast.

[firemonkey]

I was the opposite at school. I got mediocre O level grades when if I’d swotted , like some did , I’d have done much better. 6th form was a washout as I was getting ill by then . I think it could be said my level of perseverance isn’t that high . If an answer to something doesn’t come quickly to me, then I’m not one to doggedly wrack my brain for an answer .

[insidemind]

I did math at a top 20 university (5 in the world if you include global universities). It was extremely hard for me and stressful on top of having schizophrenia towards the end. I think my IQ was 120-130 before the schizophrenia hit and now it’s like 110-120. My GPA at community college was 3.9 and went down to a 2.9 or something (they start your GPA over from scratch when you transfer). I think I’m pretty smart in math but stupid in other areas now. I’m hoping to get a real IQ test done some day. My friend thought my IQ was 130, My psychiatrist said 110-120 over the years, and online tests are show a large difference overall. I know it’s above 100 but I cannot get a job or go to school and I think it’s because of my schizophrenia (negatives suck and no motivation). I couldn’t get a proper ADHD diagnosis throughout the years and it ruined me.

I ended up dropping out because I almost failed most of my upper division math classes and scraped by with Cs. I don’t think I can even comprehend that stuff anymore and I lost a lot of interest. I’m more into philosophy now and computer programming. I hope one day to get a job and have a wife but that probably will NEVER happen. I like physics now too.

I think schizophrenia treatment will get better in the coming years. I just have a feeling and a hunch. I think my dopamine levels are elevated possibly from the Norovirus and there will be a vaccine coming out soon. My hearing is really bad and given the circumstances I was under, I think I did okay recalling what they told me.

I hope to attend a local, accredited, and easier school majoring in computer science in the near future. I hope I can succeed in this life some day!

[Air]

I think you can succeed at it. Just take your time. I took me a long time to be able to go to school again. Don’t focus too much on IQ, its the work that will make the difference. Also, getting a C in an upper division math class is normal lol, don’t be so hard on yourself.

[antidepressant044]

I’m obsessed with my imperfections; for example, I have the worst memory of anyone I know, and it’s embarrassing. But maybe I have some strengths too. Just don’t know what they are yet lol. I kind of have the opposite of the problem this thread posits.