The future

Unusual Beliefs
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Do you ever look into the future and think there’s no way you’re going to live that long? I don’t see myself making it past my twenties. This world just feels so wrong. I know I do not belong here and I think I will kill myself before my 30th birthday.

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You’d better make plans for in case you don’t commit suicide. You wouldn’t want to live a dismal life.

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I plan on going to college next year. Seems pointless really, but I’ll do it I guess.

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I guess it’s just that my mind is pushing me to commit suicide. There must be a reason. This feeling that I don’t belong here must be true.

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If you give it time your brain could heal and let you feel good about life again. Try increasing glutathione production, it seems to be key to mental health. It repairs oxidative stress.

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What is glutathione and oxidative stress?

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Glutathione is a compound your body synthesizes from parts of what you eat, and it is used to repair the general wear and tear your body and brain undergo, which is known as “oxidative stress”.

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Thanks. I looked up how to get more. It would be good for me to start exercising regularly and to eat more vegetables.

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Glad to hear that, hope it helps.

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I meant like you experience the same life after and after. Nothing changes unless I change.

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Seriously. I was like that at 20. I couldn’t imagine myself living past 30! Surprisingly I did and now I’m 48.

All that happens is that it moves so quickly. One day you wake up your 30. Then it’s nothing and your like 40! Truly it becomes a procession from 30 for sure!

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I never could imagine I’d be 30. I just had no idea I’d ever get there! I thought I’d be a kid forever! :blush: I’m almost 33 now, and loving my life. When I think about aging, I don’t think about growing old—tho sometimes I wonder what I will look like (and how I will plan to keep my beautiful silver hairs :blush:). I think about how I’m still growing and maturing.

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Both my father and my aunt told me right before they died that they thought they’d die young, so they didn’t plan their lives at all.
Both died the same month, same year, both 82 years old.

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:cherry_blossom: It is beautiful to me that they considered 82-years-old to be young :cherry_blossom:

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I definitely didn’t expect to even make it to 18. I fully expected me to die before then, for some reason. Like, my body couldn’t comprehend making it through high school. Now I’m 23 and I can’t comprehend becoming 30 at some point. The future feels impossible, but I know I must plan for it in case my feelings of doom aren’t reality.

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I see myself becoming 100, I will never suicide.

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Good good young man…!!!

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Thanks everyone. It must be common then to feel that you won’t make it past a certain age. Do you guys have this feeling that you’re on the wrong planet in the wrong dimension? This feeling is driving my longing for death. Like I said before, my mind obviously wants me to commit suicide. There must be a reason.

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Guys I got increased to 10mg of haldol but there’s a force in me that says “don’t stop believing.”

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Yes. I’m 48. I’m worried about making it to 55. No reason to be worried at the moment though all my vitals are good. Fingers crossed it stays that way.

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