I don’t hear voices but my other problems haven’t gotten better. I remember being a child and I never would have thought life would be like this. Life has a special way of flipping the switch on you. Christianity says the world will be ending on 2025. I keep thinking about that today. I think it’s because I cannot wait. I do not want to grow old. I do but not in this shell. In the hell I created for myself. I want my old life back. That is a unobtainable goal. So what do I got. A fist full of meds that don’t work. A family who doesn’t understand. A father that is dying of cancer but most importantly I have a piece of ■■■■ inside me. Something I cannot run from because it simply. Is me. It follows me around like a dark cloud. I am corrosive like acid on the inside. All of my old beliefs get ■■■■■■ over and over. I am Jack’s sense of despair. But in all seriousness I will be here until hell freezes over. I keep saying my prayers and one day they might be answered. Nobody wants to die. They just don’t want to live with their selves.
I feel the same and do the same too. I pray constantly for my burdens to be lifted
God won’t help but that doesn’t mean to quit prayer or to go to the other side. It just means that’s our point of existence. To be sad and to die. We all owe god a death.
I feel like schizophrenia robs us definitely, sometimes I want it to be a terminal illness. But then I think how silly that would sound
I’m bipolar with mixed mania and psychotic features but I relate to schitzophrenic because I very well may be one. I have that same exact thought some days. I just don’t want to die of suicide but I’ve been ready for a long time. But when you are going to die you don’t want to. It’s a real catch. An eternity of dreaming would be enough for me.
I wish I felt emotions like normal people. I have the wrong reactions to things and that’s the worse. I feel like a psycho but I know I’m not. I have empathy.
Holy cow sniper! That’s no joke…get medical help!
HAHAHA. I ALREADY DID. this is just me with help. That ■■■■ don’t work.
God is angry at us. Look around and tell me otherwise. We’re not greatful and I hope to be on his side. I’d rather serve in heaven then to be wrong in hell.
I miss drinking alcohol. I want a Corona or a glass of Guinness. But what I really want is a bottle of Middleton’s neat.
You know, Idk what those are, but you’ve gotta get help, be savvy, have insight into your condition or find other healthy folk who can help out! You can do it matey!
I know my condition. I go up and down for like no reason. Never really feel good and then on top of it all I have to take medication that sucks for the rest of my life.
It’s no fair :shrug_emoji:
…still take meds…
Yeah, antipsychotics are the first line of treatment, then there’s supplements and diet.
Supplement that works for me to reduce positive symptoms is Amyloban 3399, which is a potent form of lions mane that increases nerve growth factor in the brain. I took it for little over two weeks and my voices have almost stopped (99%), but I still hallucinate around people and synchronicities keep happening.
There’s hope if you look for it.
Life is difficult - for all of us. Think of a brand new baby. He has to lie on his crib all by himself for hours, only able to move just a little. His new mind hardly knows anything to think about. And his heart can’t be about himself because he can’t give care to himself. Surely, you are better off than that baby.
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