First, let me start off by saying, I don’t believe that I am possessed. This has always been my husband’s theory about my illness.
On August 21st I am leaving to go on a deliverance retreat at my husband’s request. There they will attempt to rid me of my demons.
I’m somewhat dubious about this, but if you’re going to acquiesce, may I suggest having a bit of fun with it? Take a can or three of pea soup along with you. 
Pixel.
I am going to do my best to REALLY try this. I want to satisfy him so that we can move on.
I was just thinking along these lines about myself, you know last week when that dude shot a bunch of black folks at a church somewhere in the south US?
I kid you not …at the exact time he was doing that I had evil racist thoughts going through my mind and for some reason I was carrying a hammer with me at work.
Oh, no @petester demons aren’t real.
Thanks, have a great day.
cool pic (schifity five)
Thanks “brah” ,
shifty eyes …
It is frustrating when family doesn’t believe in the illness and say its demons or something else.
Uhhhhh. Hmm. Well… Do you really think that will happen (like, if he believes that you are possessed by a demon)?
(head smacking hard down on table emoticon goes here, but they don’t have one)
Think maybe this might be a little co-dependent? (Or even more than a little?)
I’ve been trying to think of something to say that is polite and supportive, but it’s difficult. I give @samples32 credit for meeting her husband partway on this, but I’m kind of horrified that a husband would put their spouse through this in the first place. 
Pixel.
Given that you also have ptsd and children I am very concerned for you.
I can not imagine how you are feeling about this.
My sincere advice is to start documenting some of the conversations with your husband. Write everything down from thoughts to actions. Email it all to yourself on a private email account.
I was involved in a very sad domestic situation that cost me dearly.
Had I the hindsight to journal, it most likely would not have been so tragic.
You still have 1.5 months so maybe you (or someone) feather the notion that it may not be a good idea/ultimatum.
Sigh
Do not be afraid to get some legal advice. Not that you are planning on separating, think of it as insurance for your WHOLE family.
positive vibrations to you @samples32
By the time I was 15 I had severe anxiety attacks, and my mom sent me to a pastor friend of hers to get me baptised in the Holy Spirit and delivered of evil spirits. I ended up screaming the place down and the experience only made my anxiety attacks worse afterwards, and afraid of Pentecostal churches and people and the Holy Spirit. My illness soon descended into sz when I was 18 and my mother said to a friend that ‘the look in my eyes was not of God’. It only worsened my illness to hear that - I became paranoid that the evil spirits had access to me.
I hope your experience won’t be as terrifying, Samples32!
Personally I don’t believe mental illness is caused by possession, I prefer the science and medical route. Its a chemical imbalance.
Well, in my husband’s defense, he asked nicely, and it is one of the few options I haven’t tried.
It’s a retreat on a ranch. I am hoping to just ride some horses, relax and maybe get some piece of mind.
Demons?!? Yikes! Is this for real?
Indeed. Who knows, maybe it will relax me?
Yeah make the best of it @samples32
I dont know what else to say!
