I told one of my therapists i think there is a demon inside of me and she told me i was sick and needed to go home and soothe myself.
when i sit in group i get the feeling that everyone is being hostile torwards me. hundreds of thoughts come at me and i just couldn’t take it so i left.
i have no other way to explain why my thoughts feel so alien to me. i must be possessed. it may sound psychotic but it makes total sense, why else would parts of myself be telling me to hurt people etc.? when the people around me tell me that im not the type of person to hurt people? I think we were all brainwashed into thinking that the supernatural is ridiculous when really 99 percent of humanity since the beginning of time has believed in the supernatural.
maybe there would be a revolution inside the mental health system if all these idiots weren’t trained to say certain things whne not even using their own opinions or considering with 1% of their mind that a psychotic delusion may have some truth to it
While I agree with what you’re saying here (hope I don’t sound crazy to any onlookers…) a part of me says that the Mind must first be made right to subdue the fear about this topic.
I thought you might’ve been having some trouble when you weren’t posting anymore. I’m so sorry
Hoping I’m not … fueling any fear here either. (._.)
Sounds like group sucked tonight. Where are you now?
im at home. ive been acting not myself lately and my doctors been out since december on medical leave i see her on the 2nd
Parents home, too? Have you got someone there in case of emergency?
When you say not yourself, how do you mean? It feels dumb to ask how long you haven’t been feeling right, but how long have you really been feeling off?
your therapist should never had said that…
he/she sounds like a dick…excuse my french.
as to the hostile feelings…that is normal sz stuff.
know someone cares 
take care 
Bluuuuuuueeeeeeeeeyyyyy
Bloooooooooooooooeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
At least two years now…
a demon can’t be inside you nor is it real. I know from first hand experience with that delusion
Mom is home. i think the suicidal thoughts have passed
Every person is the sort of person who sometimes wants to hurt someone.
Whenever I get hostile thoughts I know not to act on them. Usually when I sleep after that everything seems to process in dreams then I wake up feeling fine again.
Do you mind my asking… Where is this group, and what state license does the therapist have? (It’s usually in a frame on the wall in their office.)
It’s adolescent IOP which i shouldn’t really be in because I’m 19. It’s a free rather cheap program.
I will check next time I’m in the office what kind of license it is.
I’m glad. I’m glad you’re seeing your doctor on Tuesday, wish it was sooner.
You’re holding yourself to a pretty high standard, you know.
I’m a perfectionist… got it from my Dad… whose religion murders the intended meaning of the line “be ye therefore perfect”
anyways. im glad i have ur support