As if I thought i could ever be good
What’s the matter?
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I feel like a failure. Wveyrhing i try just goes wrong. Its inevitable. I actually thiught i was doing better but recent events have shown me otherwise. I was never doing better. I didnt make progress i only convinced myself that i did.
I promise you you’re not a failure. Seeing some of your other posts, it sounds like you’ve been through a lot. And no one deserves to go through the hell I assume you’re going through. It sounds like your blaming things that are out of your control on yourself.
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Have you tried talking to a therapist?
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I just dont wany to disappoint people. Im supposed to be good.
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Not lately. Working on a psychiatey appointment and then we’ll go from there
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You sound like a good person to me, that is just currently struggling. If you don’t want to get into the specifics of your situation, I understand.
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That’s good, a psychiatrist can at least help you get leveled out with your mood, and possibly psychosis, hopefully they can find a med for you that will ease up your depression. When you say that it’s inevitable that everything goes wrong, that’s a thought distortion. I’ve had it before. It’s a tough one, but you gotta keep trying, and realize the results can always be different, (you’re not always gonna fail).
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Im hoping to be put back on zoloft. I havent been on meds in a few years. I was on zoloft to stabilize my mood. Most of my symptoms come from me not being able to manage my emotions and stress. The more stress the worse everything is. So the zoloft just give me a little help in evening myself out.
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Good, I hope that works out for you. And I hope your situation improves. I don’t know what’s going on, but I think psychiatrist and therapist are your next big steps.
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Hope you can get help @NeoPolitan02. Hugs and prayers.
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I want to tell you i just dont know where to start. I m in college, was quarantined cause sick, got behind because of it (taking mostly shop classes), scrambling to catch up, lots of stress, triggered anxiety, depression, psychotic symptoms (dont acyially have psychosis), havent really dealt with those things for a while. Can tell im getting super impulsive.
Have a diagnosis of psychotic somatic symptom disorder. Untreated PTSD turned into depression, anxiety and psyxhotic symptoms which only really emerge when stress, anxiety,and depression aren’t being properly managed
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Thank you. For the hugs and prayers both.
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I see, and how is your husband responding to all of this?
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Hes been really supportive. He supported my decision to drop out of the rest of the semester except for my gen ed class. I apologize i forgot to include that. I dropped the rest of my shop classes. I know he worries about me and i feel bad because i dont want to make him worry and i just want him to be happy but i know he wouls feel worse if i tried hiding things from him. Plus i dont want to hide from him. Hes my person.
He makes sure i always know hes here but i think he understands that i dont want him to stop everything. He still does his own things and just checks on me every now and then. I really appreciate it. I dont feel bad because he isnt dropping everything but hes still checking on me. Its easier to talk if someone else initiates conversation.
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I see, that’s a very good thing that your husband is supportive of you. I was worried it was a different kind of situation with how hard you have been on yourself. Who do you feel like your letting down with your “failures”?
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Absoluteky everyone. My husband, my parents, my friends, my family.
Are any of your friends/family treating you harshly because of your situation? Or is it just something that’s in your head?
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Probably something more in my head. But im supposed to be good. I was supposed to be better.